There are three of us

Posted by admin on July 13th, 2014 filed in Uncategorized
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There are three of us, and normally we do almost everything together. Except my husband goes to Torah study on his own, because often I am taking care of dad. I walk the dog on my own but normally will walk with my hubby too.
When we go out to eat it’s three, when we go to church its the 3 of us, unless one of us is sick. Dad was for a while there deciding he didn’t want to go to service. He been a pill lately, he will look for ways to argue with my husband and I. So frustrating especially when it’s he gotta go to the bathroom but insisted he doesn’t have to go, than 3 minutes later he has a accident on himself and don’t want to go back. My husband and I know that no one cares if he has a accident, it happens. As long as his clothes are changed it’s not a problem. But sometimes he would rather just sit there and not do anything about it.
It’s hard to go anywhere because we know within 30 minutes we gonna be needing to stop and possibly change his clothes which isn’t a big deal but its makes trips take a long time. Sometimes it seems like taking care of Dad really does take away other things that my hubby and I would like to do. But this is why doing the right thing isnt always the easiest.


Lovely weather

Posted by admin on June 24th, 2014 filed in Uncategorized
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I love living in the Pacific Northwest, yes sometimes we get a lot of rain but I would rather that than the other extremes. I am pretty sure if I lived in Burlington I might need to contact a agency out of burlington for weather damage and here I don’t have to do that. We have been able to walk with dad out to dinner a few times which is nice. He likes going for walks with us and sometimes it easier on the gas budget if we can just walk.
I have noticed some unsettling things while walking with him and my husband is that a lot of people seem to have road rage. Someone almost hit my husband, his dad and I on Sunday. I had to run and pretty much push dad hard in order to prevent him from being harmed, I figured landing on the concrete would be better than getting hit by a car. I should have never had to make this decision of the lessor to the two damages. It is no wonder our insurance prices are going up because people want to be careless. The guy got out of his car and was threatening to my husband and I was worried he would do something like shot him, or attempt to beat my husband up. I was scared for dad and my husband. I was worried about myself too but not as much as them. I do believe the Father had his hand of protection on my family because some by standards started yelling at the driving telling him to leave that family alone! They did nothing wrong you almost hit them. I told my husband get his phone out and call the police. I do not like feeling scared in my own neighborhood!
That wasn’t the only thing that happened the other day while walking dad some woman decided because we was walking across the street it was okay to cuss at us on the way out to dinner. It is sad to see how people are willing to treat each other.


Live by grace

Posted by admin on March 16th, 2014 filed in Uncategorized
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We have a couple of neighbors who I would like to well get some paybacks for at least its not in our building. The people who live her are great but near by there one family if i could wake up early with a dv mark amps towards their balcony it would make me happy, since they want to be loud. I get people want to let lose its the weekend but I shouldnt need ear plus because they amping there music and screaming over it.


Sometimes have to look for the blessing

Posted by admin on March 16th, 2014 filed in Uncategorized
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Sometimes I lose tract of G-d blessings because of things in life. Right now I am struggling with my comprehensive exams and not really wanting to do them. I know I have to complete them but the first time I totally flopped on it. I am not even sure how I managed to do so horrible but I had put a lot of time into it.. I am now beyond worried because what I thought to be a maintance issue of when i was trying to do homework ended up actually the school taking away access to the library. So now I have less than 2 weeks, and I have spent 7 hours on 1 paper just researching and trying to figure out everything. These three papers is all I have left to successfully complete. I am not sure I can now with only having two weeks. I am concerned about the next two questions because I am not even halfway done with the first question. The casestudy will be time consuming.
So right now I need to find G-ds pleasing and it hard to do that.. I have a couple blessing I can easily say that are recent and normally i can find multiple things.


Only three pieces of jewelry will i wear

Posted by admin on March 16th, 2014 filed in Uncategorized
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I am not someone who wears a lot of jewelry, I have 1 necklace, and 2 rings my wedding band and engagement ring, even through its small which is what I want i still feel its a gorgeous diamond rings. It fits who I am, I have never liked big and blucky things. I dont often wear earrings because my ears seem to get angry if I wear anything less than 14k to 24k depending on the gold quality. Gold is so expensive so I dont bother with wearing it but I wouldnt mind having a few more things I can wear for special occasions.


We gotta do what we gotta do

Posted by admin on March 16th, 2014 filed in Uncategorized
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There are a lot of times I feel like telling people we gotta do what what gotta do. Why because often people do not understand some of my husband or my mannerism. Or why we might talk loud.. I talk loud because I am use to having to with dad living here. Even with his hearing aids in I don’t think he hears well. Dad legs have been giving him trouble but we keep encouraging him to walk and keep mobile because we don’t want him to lose any more of his independence than he already has.
I have to say I sometimes feel like my husband and I are alone, and have to watch his dad go down hill. Lately dad has been struggling getting dressed or remembering how to do this task. I help him but I try not to help to much and it’s hard to know the balance so that he remains independent but at the same time receives the help he needs. He been getting difficult with my husband thinking I can be the only one to help him.. Out in public I can’t help him. He can not go to the girls room with me or I to the boys room with him.. It’s not safe for me to do that. It also inconvenient for any man or women who want privacy doing there business. So my husband takes him last night dad decided to wait in the bathroom a very longtime thinking I was gonna come in there.
This is frustrating for my husband because he doesn’t know how to deal with it.. Maybe telling him right away the girl not coming in here..
We never know whats acceptable because everyone has there own opinion and it feels like we can never make anyone happy. At least to me.


Ear plugs might be good

Posted by admin on March 2nd, 2014 filed in Uncategorized
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There are sometimes that I think my neighbors have a exceptional kustom pa speakers, I can hear there music sometimes as clear as if they stereo was right next to me. At least it during the day and the music is music I actually listen to. They are good neighbors so if they are a bit nosy it doesn’t bother me as much, but boy they must have a nice sound system.. I think the walls here are paper thin sometimes because you hear things you don’t want to hear. It is a blessing to have good neighbors, I have had many great members but the few bad ones can really change the way a place feels.


Fine you can stay home

Posted by admin on March 2nd, 2014 filed in Uncategorized
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Yesterday dad was being very challenging to the point of not even wanting to attempt to have him come to service. He wanted to stay home, eventhough there was nothing wrong with him other than feeling sorry for himself. Normally I can tell him if we go I stop and get donuts for you, when I tell him everyone looking forward to seeing him doesn’t work. Well dad wanted to start his day off by being stubborn and unyielding to anything. He’d rather stay home with me but I decided my husband was the best one to stay with him for the day. Anyways it was my husband turn to stay home, sometimes I will stay when I am the better equipped to deal with whatever dad problem is. So this week he didn’t go to church, he been grumpy all weekend but I am ignoring him as much as possible until he starts doing things that affect innocent bystanders like my cats or his dog. Today he figured it be okay to threaten the cat with his walker, I am almost wondering if he sees me and my husband teasing the pets with our feet and thinks it okay for him to act the way he does. Maybe he trying to play with the animals who knows.


To loud

Posted by admin on February 25th, 2014 filed in Uncategorized
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Often I think things are just to loud, but there is a need for affordable hughes and kettner combo in many places where there are a lot of people. The congregation I belong to know is small but we still use amps and stuff, some weeks its to loud for me but usually its not to bad. There is a need for them when we grow and when there is back ground noises.


Family update

Posted by admin on February 25th, 2014 filed in Uncategorized
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Dad was able to talk to his brother this week which was good. His brother was moved to a memory care facility, but this was expected. I had spoke to the nurse there before having dad speak to his brother because the last couple of phone calls have been not positive for either of them. The last one was Dad brother telling Dad he thought he was dead and hadn’t heard from him in a long time. He keeps telling dad he mailing letters but we never get a letter from him. What I might do is let dad right a letter and than put a self addressed envelope with it, maybe if his brother is writing they have a better chance to connect.
Dad is doing pretty good, he has his good and bad days. He seems to love looking for arguments. This has always been a part of how he acts so we just ignore it as much as possible and we try to be patient with him.
I have my comp exams to do this month coming up and hopefully I do better on them. My husband is doing better good too, he finally got his cpap machine so now I can feel more at ease with him sleeping and not worry about him to much.