Dont think I remember

Its been a long time since I have played my great yamaha piano well it was actually a full size keyboard, I kindof miss it. But there is no room here and I doubt I remember how to play considering I got raid of all my music books when I moved here. I haven’t played Keyboard for close to 2 years now maybe even three years because I hardly played it after dad moved in because I do not like playing it around others especially on songs I am just learning or on songs I am trying to write but to be honest I also preferred guitar over keyboards for awhile.

Almost done

I have one class that has 2 weeks and two internships to complete. I am so far a straight A student, this has taken a lot of work. Especially since anyone who reads my blogs knows I am not a good writer, but I have a editor. I write the papers up and send them in for proofing, which is important for me. I spend hours on end, and it will be strange not to have a bunch of homework and spend a bunch of time on the computer just to complete it. I have 2 internship left plus 103 hours of direct care to complete. This will be done in 24 weeks, I am so excited to be completed. I am just hoping finding a job will be a lot easier than finding my internship was it took me over a year to find this internship. Goodness knows I hope it doesnt get pulled out from under me. I am tired of let downs considering all I have left is my internship hours of 703 total hours of direct and indirect care hours. My work has paid off, now I have to pay off the loans and get started with a career.

I love where we live

I would never need a jacksonville nc real estate listings now a Clackmas county or somewhere near that county I would need a listening for eventually. Maybe in the next five years I am hoping to be financially stable after completing my education and with a job that will help pay for living expenses. Although I have to say I am not impressed with out county right now. They have shelters for dogs but none for cats, and I think cats are just as valuable as dogs. Yes you can’t walk well some of them you can but for the most not many walk.
I like where we live for the most but eventually I would like my own yard so I can plant a garden.

Let me or Craig worry about it

Often we try not to talk about anything around dad that he will worry about, but sometimes it can’t be helped. We recently had a cat come to the patio who was in bad shape. Dad is a kind soul, sometimes he difficult to handle but he still cares when he seems something in pain. We had a abandoned cat come up to our patio, poor sweet little thing was starved half to death, was ungroomed, was not well cared for and had a bad upper resp infection. I have wrote about him on a other page. Dad wanted to bring him in, because he needed help. I had to explain to dad he seemed awfully sick and Otis my 18 year old cat couldn’t handle being exposed to what ever the poor little guy had so he had to stay out and I would look into some options to get him help. Sadly for this little guy he had to be put to sleep. I feel bad that I couldnt take him in, and I haven’t told dad about his fate yet. This little guy you could just tell in the right home he would have been a great little pet.

Sadly his owner didn’t follow the Torah or Bible in how we are to treat living creatures. I hate to tell dad the fate of this because I don’t want him being mad at me.

Sing a Song of Praise

I like singing, and writing, but I haven’t been able to be creative for a while now. I sometimes feel like I have no time for nothing at home, because someone always around me. I am private person when it comes to my music and writing I don’t want ears around. When I need or want ears around I would not mind using something from vocopro from musicians friend, but I am more of a hobby musician and probably getting way to old to do anything with it, not to mention I have a career I am about to start.

Doing right is often hard

I have come to realize that sometimes doing the right thing can be harder than doing what comes the easiest. As dad Alzheimer’s progresses sometimes it’s hard to keep him here. Everyone always shocked when we tell them about some of our experiences, because normally out in public he nice friendly and kind, but at home it’s a different ball game. It’s let me argue as much as I can, let me tell you how horrible of a job your doing. Or let me yell at you because I am in a bad mood and want my way when its really not good for me.
Yesterday morning the very first thing was a argument to get him to get up. He didnt want to church because everyone would make fun of him. No one makes fun of him my husband and I wouldn’t tolerate it, and he just didn’t want to go because I didn’t jump and buy him a new razer after he mistreated his razer. He kept his raze on the ground in a high traffic area. He had started to complain about it and than started leaving it on the floor. I figured I didn;t have to run out and get a razer right away. I wanted to do some research and get him a razer that could withstand more abuse than his last one which we spent close to 100$ less than a year ago. Sorry but I don’t have money to keep buying him a new razer that expensive. If dad can’t meet expenses it comes out of my husband or my income. We don’t mind doing this we do it.
I order him a razer that my husband and I think will be good for him from Amazon so he have it. But I am tired of all the arguments everyday from him. He gets angry if he knows I will be out of the home for any amount of time. This isn’t pleasant because he gets nasty to my husband yet people don’t see this, and they don’t understand how sometimes my husband and I feel overwhelmed or pressured when people joke with us about the care we provide because we have to deal with a lot of negative issues.

Being active

I am not someone who normally sit still for long. I can but I rather be active. I can spot a active person from a mile away. I have noticed people who play congas for sale, dance, and play other instruments normally do not sit still well. I enjoy dancing during worship because it gives me something to do that is planned out a bit, and structured. Now don’t get me wrong I like singing and seating or standing while doing it but sometimes it nice to be able to dance. I know there are some people who prefer congas, or drums.

Gotta tell us

You know I don’t mind when dad gotta go potty, as long as he tells us and doesn’t decide to wait to long. He often does this to us. He will wait and wait than have accident. We have gotten to a point of having him go to the bathroom before we leave, he gets mad about it but when we don’t 2 minutes after being in the car says he gotta go potty. Okay well often we can’t get him back fast enough. He been doing pretty good lately. Everyone is over their colds now which is good, that was no fun.
I am still looking for a internship, and about to simply give up and be done with trying. I won’t because I know it won’t help me any, but after well over 100 nos I am well discouraged to say the least.

Dont let other control you

Last week my husband and I were talking, and he had felt that I was letting someone be controlling of what I thought. He todl me I shouldnt let other control what I do, i know in the past people have tried getting me to not follow a good plan for for healthy eating plans I have gotten a little bit better but sometimes when people say things about needing to lose weight or how I should do this or that it causes me to have stress. My husband thought that I shouldnt let others make me feel bad because of how i am because I’ve done well on many. I have tried to not be as direct with people because I dont want to hurt people feelings but sometimes you have to be direct.

Passover almost over

Passover seems to be pretty easy even with being gluten-free one nice thing is I can make gluten free yeast-free challah and it turns out nice for my family and I. The last time I bought Matzah that was gluten-free I couldnt even eat it. Its nice being able to make it for myself. All i did was modify my recipe for gluten-free challah and threw it in the oven a lot faster than normal.