Are you truly sorry

I hardly every say sorry, why not. Well I know if I say sorry to someone and will end up doing the same action I don’t believe that is sorry. Sometimes my husband and I have stupid Arguments. I cause some of them and he causes some of them, just like any other married couples I know. On certain subjects I am more sensitive then he and vice versa. Very seldom do I say “I sorry”. So may people have used it and just continue doing the same actions.

Yesterday I was at church and I said something stupid. Sometimes I try to use joking or picking on myself so no one else can. I learned to do this at a early age. I didn’t realize there was another person in the class who was similar to me. I felt, I needed to go and apologize to her.

I have been to churches and have family members that do things which hurt me, and cause me pain. then they say sorry and continue on doing the same hurtful things. This isn’t sorry to me. When they say I am sorry, i don’t receive it. I look for people to show their actions, because those are what speaks the loudest.

Why say sorry, when your just going to turn around and do it gain.

There are few people who have said sorry to me and truly meant it. Lately I been thinking about one of my Congregations elder late wives. She showed me what true repentance was. I was part of the worship team at the time and was wearing something that she felt was to revealing. She confronted me about it but in front of a couple of people, who were also on the worship team. I was very embarrassed, and something that was said reminded me of something in the past.

I knew it shouldn’t have upset me as it had done. I knew that she wasn’t meaning anything mean or unkind. The minute she saw how upset I was, she came to me and apologized. When there was problems she felt I had she didn’t confront me in front of other people, or where I would feel that other may hear her and I. This showed me a lot. It showed me that when your Sorry, you change your behavior.

I also look at it the same why with repentances, if we tell the L-rd we have sin and ask His Forgiveness shouldn’t we be working on changing the behavior. Repentance is more then just saying Sorry, or asking for forgiveness, it also changing the behavior which is offensive to G-d.