November

Today was 11 years that my great grandma had pass away. My dad was 14 years on the 17th of this month. I hate to say this but I normally feel blah this time of year around this part of the month. Great grandma lived to be over 90. I was in college when she passed away and came home for her funeral.

I miss both of them this time of year it seems more then any other time of year. I know sometimes during the year I think about my father and wishing he was here. I don’t really do that with Great Grandma, but I do miss her.

On Thanksgiving day I am going to see Grandma, I am glad, she was my father mother and my great grandma daughter. I know it will mean a lot to Grandma having Craig (husband) and I hope for Thanksgiving. In many ways I am closer to Grandma then my own mother. My grandma is the type of person who sticks with it even when it tough. I wonder where I would be if she had given up on me like some people had adviser to do. This Thanksgiving she wants us to go to a friends for desert after dinner.

I miss my dad during these times, because he be able to explain to grandma how far away Craig and I leave. I am a little nervous about seeing Grandma friends because I am sure as a teen I didn’t give them a good impression of me. I was pushing everyone away and putting Grandma through many test to make sure she wasn’t going to give up on me or get raid of me because I was to much trouble.

Grandma always encourages me, and she put up with a lot of stuff. When I lived with Grandma we went to see great grandma at least once a week. Great Grandma was always happy to see me, and I would always bring her a song that I was learning in choir or voice lesson or a song I liked from the Radio. Great grandma always smiled when we were there. We took her out to dinner until it got to much to handle for grandma. Great grandma always spoke her mind, sometimes it was funny other times she would embarrasses us all.

November has always been a hard month for me to deal with, it just seems like anyone who pass away does it in November. I am glad I will be spending Thanksgiving with Grandma and my uncle, I know it will mean a lot to them because Novembers are hard on them to.