Thanksgiving Dinner

I have always enjoyed Thanksgiving and making turkey with the fixing this year, we ate out. We ate out everyday with Grandma, she don’t want cooking in her house, I would have preferred home cooking, even if it was from me.

We went out with one of Grandma friends, and that persons daughter. The restaurant we went to is Grandma favorite place, and the Wait staff know grandma very well. They handled my pork allergy very well, and i was able to be safe with eating their turkey.

During dinner time we we talking about how greatfull for our family. During this time I found out my uncle who is challenged idolizes me. I really wish he wouldn’t. I don’t want him putting me into a place in his mind that will hurt him when I fail or be a stupid human which I am bound to do. My uncle was in one of his moods where no questions can be asked and almost no conversation is okay. It is hard to deal with him when he gets like this and stress my grandma out. My uncle was in the bathroom when grandma friend told me my uncle idolizes me. My heart sank, because I know how people can be even when they don’t mean to. I love my uncle and don’t want him to be hurt because he has me in such a high place in his mind.

Grandma told me he does idolize me. I don’t see why. I used to pick on him when I lived with Grandma and him, I wasn’t really mean but I picked on him. I gotten myself into so much trouble in my early adult years that my grandma or my other uncle or aunt had to help me to keep me from getting into real serious trouble. I see all the mistakes I have made in the past and know I will probably do some more stuff wrong. I have gained wisdom through everything and learned a few hard lessons.

I am a lot like my grandma, I see many of my personality treats in her, and it used to drive me nuts. Now I am starting to see more of her in me, don’t get me wrong I love my grandma a lot, she is like a 2nd mom to me. I know my uncle sees me more like a sister to, because I lived with him as a teen. Grandma told me she sees me as her daughter even though she had her daughter. I felt honored that she saw me as a 2nd daughter, but I am carious how her daughter would feel. Her daughter is very independent, so am I, but I talk to grandma about everything. I am so greatful for grandma I don’t know what I would do with out her or my uncles and aunts.

I told my uncle he shouldn’t idolize me because i am human and will fail and hurt him. Grant it I would never hurt him or fail intentionally but I know I am fair from being perfect. I know when I go home my husband and my self are witnesses to my relatives or who Yeshua is but that doesn’t mean I am prefect.