Controling words before they exit

Tonight, I was talking to my best friend. She had texted me asking if we were still going to be able to get together tomorrow morning. I said I think so, she had asked how I was doing, normally I give her a definite yes or a definite no not a “I think so” I guess since it was out of my character she felt the need to ask me how I was doing. I texted her stressed, but it would take to long for me to text it all and I would tell her tomorrow.

Krysta, sometimes seems to know when to call and not wait till tomorrow. To be honest stressed was only one of the feelings I was struggling with, to be honest I was livid. I knew the fullness of how angry I was I couldn’t share with my husband because he is going through it too with me, and it wouldn’t be fair for me to say it how I did with my friend to him. During the short time we texted Krysta buss got into a accident with a car that felt the need to turn in front of her bus. She went on some tour, so she called me after that happened. Before telling her what was going on I made sure she was okay.

She is one of those friends I do not need to hold back if I need to vent and discuss my frustrations she will let me and not think it on her. I normally will tell people when I am at a point of where I think they may feel yelled at, I am sorry I don’t mean to yell at you… Krysta took the approach of that okay I know it not at me, and I would be furious too! While sharing with her everything that was happening, I was telling her how bad mom and dad RV was lift by one of their XNeighbors, who have taken advantage of mom and dad.

I am someone if I cuss it normally pretty bad and very seldomly happens, tonight I was talking to her. I know the Scripture that says be angry but do not sin. I caught myself before I let out the whole word. I said the first letter, and took a deep breath my husband looked at me and my response was well I don’t have to cuss to get my point a cross. I can make the same point with out cussing or speaking with a garbage can. In the scripture we are also told to share one an other burdens, I believe my friend has always done very good with this, over the last 10 or so years her and I have walked through fire to put it nicely.

Out of all my friends I would trust her with everything, not saying that she won’t fail or fall short but if she does I know she would have most likely done it because she wasn’t thinking. the same goes for me I know I have sometimes been less of a good friend then what I should have been but sometimes friends are like your term life insurance quotes and are only there for a season, and sometimes they remain life time friends.

I know sometimes I say things that should not be spoken, because it not controlling the tongue. It is hard catching words that sometimes easily can come out when we are angry. To be honest I am not sure how I manage to bite my tongue and not say the word I really wanted to say.