Just ranting today

I will be so glad when the woman retreat comes at my church. I haven’t been able to go on any outings like this since I was a teen. It is a blessing I am able to go, because my husband and myself didn’t have the money to send me, so they gave me a scholarship to go. I have been laid of for a while know, so has my husband. To best honest had our Rabbi not called us, I think today I would have just flipped out. Rabbi called this morning for hubby, and wanted to meet with him. Craig was offered a job that they are not sure how long it will last, but Craig working will mean, rent will be paid maybe a little late but we can handle it.

I heard back today on the job interview I had. They waited until today to call and say they didn’t feel I was a good fit, how frustraiting. I know G-d will provide but it starting to get old going through the same thing. Maybe I should remember the commentary from Saturday, and not focus on everything that going wrong and complain because it not going how I want it to go.

I think I need to get away from my husband for a couple of days, because he just driving me nuts, not by anything he is doing but because, I am tired of listening to him. I am not saying I do not love my husband, but I honestly just don’t want to her it from anyone that everything will be fine, that it not rejection because of me, and how I was further ahead of him before today. Well evidently I wasn’t anywhere and made a bad decision. Maybe I should have spend more time in prayer then what I had.

I have been losing track of time and my days because I have nothing to do to remind me what date it is or which day of the week it is. Maybe me not getting this job might help me be able to stay for the whole woman retreat, I hope no one will be bugged that I keep my cell phone on me because I do not wear watches. I always break them, I have a Pocket watch but I manged to break the lock thingy, maybe FP Jorne will have a pocket watch to. I should probably see if I can find a jeweler to fix it. My grandma gave it to me, several years ago.