Being Content where you’re at

Sometimes being content is hard, because we want to do more, or simply be in a different place. We do not want to take the time to grow and learn the things we need to know in order to move into something new and sometimes with more responsibilities.  About 2 years ago I wouldn’t have seen my self as a children worship leader, I was scared of the responsibility because I know G-d holds teachers to a high standard then others who are not teaching. When your leading Children Worship your teaching them how to praise G-d and how to bring your needs to him.

I have been leading worship for a little under a year. I have pretty much stuck to the same 6 or so song, and I have a few that I do every week. I have started to see that I am using those songs are my security blanket, because I know them. I know I need to start introducing new songs to keep the children interested in Songs.  Recently I have started bring in different songs, and a few teachers have asked me if I know a few songs, I do. I sometimes find it easier not to bring in a song I don’t know so well because then I do not make a mistake. I am a perfectionist, and I find it hard dealing with mistakes but when I am leading worship with the little ones, I do not get to stop like I can when I am at home. I have to keep going and find my self. It took me a while to get to be content, and now when I am unable to do children worship I really feel a little lost.

I was sick this weekend on Friday, I was hit suddenly with a sore throat and congestion in my upper resp. No fun, by Saturday I was not breathing good and well just had no energy I almost didn’t go to church but I felt a need to go and be with other believers. During the sermon which is normally when I sneak out and do my time with the children. I felt lost a bit and really miss them. I knew going and singing wouldn’t do me any benefits of getting better and exposing them to what I had wouldn’t be kind.

Sometimes G-d will place us where we are not comfortable to grow us. I feel I have grown a lot during this time. I have learned things from the children and I have learned what works one week might not work the next week.  I know I have a lot more to learn, and I know that G-d will develop my talents as I use them and stretch my self to learn new things even if it scary. The nice thing about children of that age most are happy even if you sound bad, and they are also honest. I have wrote a children song which I have been encouraged to share, this is very scary for me because it more personal to me then someone else song. It sometimes I have put my time into and I created it with the talents and abilities G-d had given me.