communication just don’t work for me

I wish my husband could walk a mile in my golf shoes maybe he understand more about me and life. Our communication styles are very different I am very verbal. I honestly do not like writing letters to tell people my feels, I just rather say what I am thinking. I am a fairly blunt person when I get to know someone, and well you never have to wonder where I stand. Between us I am probably the one who is the prayer person, and my gifting are different then his so he don’t get how I could simply feel some days. I don’t always get how he feels neither, but when he upset about something, I try to go into prayer about it so I can understand it some what. I am not perfect, I am very inadequates as a wife.
I can not tell you how many times I have messed up dinner, or not got it perfectly done. Lately I have been a horrible house keeper so I have many short falling. So I see why he get frustrated because I am not like the house wife who does everything with a grateful heart and don’t expect their husband to help. Honestly I expect him to help me keep the house clean, I think it is only fair we both make a mess so we both aught to clean it, expecially if I have to have a job to help pay for all the bills, I don’t mind doing that I love working and it suites me well.
My husband has always been supportive of that and of me going to college, hopefully soon I can find a job that keeps me and get my self back into college and then on to my Master program. But then on the other hand he not always supportive when all the house work for the most is on me, because how can I do school work when I have to spend a bunch of time making sure the house gets clean.. Right now since I am out of work and not in school it not so hard to do the house work.. I just don’t like to do it. I just wish I could communicate what I am thinking and have it understood, because I don’t wanna have to write him a letter so he gets it. I used to think I was good at communicating but I am starting to think I am not good at anything I used to think I was, other then just praying…