Honesty and Lies

Today I had a conversation with my Hebrew teacher. I have been doing conversational Hebrew for a few months. I haven’t been able to pay her because of my job sistuation but as soon as I get a job I will be paying her. She knows I will and I know I will to. I hate doing this to her but she needs people to be committed to her class and well if I am missing class because I have no money. I will never be able to catch up with the class.
Today I was sharing with her what has happened with some of my jobs. She has had some similar experience. I have a hard time not telling the truth, in class I struggle with giving a false answer or making up a answer, because I don’t want to lie or be partly dishonest. If I were to be instructed to say I had maternity clothes on I would probably laugh and be able to do that because everyone would know it a untruth. This is a good quality I have but sometimes my over honesty is a bad thing, when it comes to getting jobs and temp companies.
She had encouraged me to not tell them anything about other prospects, my thing is I don’t until they ask me. I told her I didn’t want to sin and wanted to try to follow the Torah. G-d tells us not to lie in his word, so I can’t be dishonest. She told me that’s what Yom Kippur is for, it’s a time of Repentance. I responded with I don’t want to repent for something, I am going to turn around and do again later. In the Torah we are told not to bear false witness against our neighbor. I am not saying my teacher told me to directly lie because that’s not what her instructions were. It was more of don’t tell them anything, and accept opportunity, She said treat them the way they treated you. Well they have lied about me, they have disrespected me a few times.
My other problem with, treat them how they treated me, is that Yeshua wouldn’t treat them ill even though they treated him ill. I understand where she coming from because I have been there and going through it also. She’s right I need to take care of myself and my husband first, because it important for me to have food and other nice things I want. I shouldn’t require myself to have to sacrifice things I need, or sometimes things I just simply want.
I talked to my husband about it and he told me, I didn’t have to lie. But he agree with my Hebrew Teacher. I know I agree with her to, but I feel guilty at the thought of telling them nothing has opened for me or no other Opportunities when I have just interviewed with a company and don’t know where the interview is at in decision. My husband told me I could tell them I don’t have anything open right now but I am still looking. This I can live with because it is close enough to the truth and isn’t really being dishonest. This is what my Hebrew teacher was also trying to tell me but I wasn’t getting it.
I love this teacher, she is very patient with what she does, and she is good. Now I do have to admit I am worried about next week and the few weeks after because I still not getting all my verbs right and I am not sure I am going to get the Definite verb forms of the words. I believe that what we will be starting to learn soon.