Not a sales person

I have been looking for a job for quiet some time. I am not a sales person, so this isn’t a path I want to go down. I don’t want a job which is commission only because I seen what it has done to my husband and I. Lately my Rabbi been talking about giving, and tithing. I am normally someone who enjoys giving, and will try to help as much as possible when I can. I give more of my time because that what I have most of lately.
G-d has provided for me and my husband several things which we needed. My mechanic friend worked out a deal with me where I can work for labor and some parts. This has really helped me, because I haven’t got the IRS supplemental income thing yet. I am thinking they might have decided to give it to a clinic I owe money to, so there went my plans to put it toward college and car repairs but that okay. G-d will provide. Now my van runs well and isn’t dangerous or loud so it can go further with less of a worry. I still owe my mechanic friend a several hours but he says if I find a paying gig take it, and we can work around my schedule. I been looking for a job on line through all them job search engines and send out a few resume. I wish I had a external hard drive with all my information that up in my head on it. Sometimes I forgot what tasks I’ve done where.
My last couple of interviews were painful, I am not sure why but I just seem to have lost confidence or can’t seem to have enough positive things to say. I get very nervous and try to listen to every word I say and that just miss me up. I know where it started, was after hearing several times from one of my temp companies it’s a personality conflict. They didn’t like your personality, this tends to make people a little uneasy. I just hope the next interview I get I won’t clam up. Maybe I aught to pray before going for the words to speak.