Being a helpmate

Lately it seems like most Fridays it’s going to rain. I take the bus to meet my husband, and I was listening to the news and they where talking about a storm which was supposed to hit us about the time I would be catching my bus, or getting off of it to meet my husband. At first I thought great every time lately it’s raining when I am on my way to church and I don’t wanna bring my umbrella and have to carry that around everywhere and then remember to take it from hubby car.
Well I decided to pray and asked the L-rd to keep the ran from hitting us. It didn’t rain until after we got into the church. This was a answer to prayer I know it was, because the storm was moving fast enough to reach me before the prayer was said and it started raining after we got into church.
Well during worship, I was praying and kind of was feeling like why is it I can ask for the rain to stop which is kind of a small request, but yet my prayer of why can’t I find a job. I been sending out plenty of resume.
Lately I have been feeling frustrated by work, because I am not working stable enough hours, and I need to help my husband make all of the ends meet this is hard to do. I was sharing with one of the woman at church about how I was starting to lose confidence, and messing up interviews because I am so nervous and trying to make sure I do and say everything just right.
I am my own worst enemy lately. I have been feeling rather burden like everything is on me which it isn’t but it’s still frustrating to feel like a tv wall mount that has to much on it to hold all the weight. She pointed out I was only to be a help mate to my husband. Yes I am but you know I don’t feel it would be fair of me to expect my husband to work 2 or 3 jobs just to make ends meet if I am able to work and don’t have kids to tend for, being his helpmate means I need to have a job and bring in some of the monthly income, so we can have time together.