Finding Strength in Praise

Today we went to my husband parents to spend time with his mom. She recently was diagnosed with Cancer, she has both lung and pancreas cancer. This has been hard on the family. To be honest I am annoyed with my husband sister behaver. She has been crying and being difficult with mom, because of mom illness, now don’t get me wrong. I am not saying she can’t have her feelings or feel sadness of grief over this, but I am saying showing it to mom in a stressful inappropriate manor isn’t okay.
When I had gotten to mom and dad I took out my camera to put in the new batteries, but only brought 2 and needed three, so I had to run over to the corner mart. They live in a very small town, and dad was telling me get closer to the stop sign when I was parking and I was like, No I will get a ticket if a cop comes by. Dad wanted to get cigarettes for him and mom, had I known this before hand. I would have been tempted to tell him no. Dad doesn’t say a lot about the grief he feels about mom but he did say some stuff to me today. My heart goes out to him, but I don’t think he knows how to express those feelings.
While we where gone my husband had a chance to talk to mom for a bit. Mom had brought up that she found encouragement through praise and worship music. It made her feel better to think about the L-rd and that her faith is what is helping her deal with this. My husband and I feel they are both in a point of denial, but if we are honest I think we all are. My husband and I will not tell mom Good bye or even good night when we call them. We say other things to end the color.
My husband mom was sharing with me some of the things her mom said to her and shared some personal stuff. I felt honored she feel able to open up to me and my husband about things. I see a lot of myself in his mom, and can relate so well.
She has been a great example of taking what the world has thrown at her and not letting it get her down. She has encourage me smedical jewelryjust in case they need to communicate but can’t. I am so blessed having his parents, and being accepted as part of the family.
I knew when my dad was suffering from Cancer it was important to spend as much time as possible. The thing I didn’t know was it is important to say the things you never can say to the person after death. The things that you wish you would have said. You can’t tell them what they have done for you, how you feel about how they treat you or love you. It’s hard to be open with people and share with them, how important and precious they are to us. There are days I wish I could tell my dad something, but I probably never will get to. I will not do the same mistake with my husband mom, she is important and valuable to me. She like a second mom, and not many wives get to feel this way about their in laws. Before her I didn’t think anyone would love me the way they did, they just accepted me and wanted me to be apart of their family. His parents have caused a lot of healing in my life, and help me to be a lot more open with peoples. I am so blessed I am in this family.