Don’t be angry

My husband mom will never stop amazing me, and I will probably think about this for years after she passes away. My husband mom has terminal cancer, but yet her faith in Yeshua is so strong. She proclaims it. We have been worried about our Nephew who is close to his granny. I am close to his mom too, and she was sharing with us what she had told our nephew. She had told him not to be angry at Yeshua because he took her home. That it was her time to go home to the Father and she be their waiting for him.
His mom shared this with us this. I am glad, she did, this is a reminder also to my husband and I not to be angry that she gone. It’s her time to go and the Father is ready. I know my husband and I aren’t mad at G-d yet and we probably won’t be. I am not happy his mom is suffering, and it pains me to think about the pain she is having. She is a wonderful woman, she accepted me into the family unlike any other mom would treat a bride. She tells me I am also her daughter just like the rest of the family. I tend to back away from people when I know they will die. I kind of do it to guard my heart, I know it will not make it any less painful. I don’t want his mom to worry but I let her and her son mostly talk. I love her but I figure they don’t have much time.
His mom one night told me that if anyone did me any harm she’d want to be the first to poke them. I am not sure what she means by poke them. She told my husband how good of a wife and daughter law I had been.. Jokingly I told her, she could poke my school for me. That’s a whole other mess and to be very honest I am not a very happy person with the college right now. I am hoping things get solved.
It is amazing how his mom is, I know she has her days of being sad and depressed. It is a honor to know her and see how she is walking through this, she has been a inspiration to my faith and probably my husband faith. It has been very hard on us, it not easy. Each time we go down, there’s always the question on our way back will this be the last time we see her. We don’t say it but eventually it does come out.
We missed last week, and I am hoping my husband car will be fixed because my car is making some noises. I am wondering if my Tie rods might have had enough and need to be changed. Lets face it I have a good mechanic here which I can pay off slowly or work for the labor. Last thing I need to do is get caught in his parent town and have to pay a huge amount of money. To bad I can’t give my van a weight loss pills, to make it act happy.