Once it learned it over

Our Rabbi is doing a series on the Spiritual world. I am kind of glad he is, because people need to be made aware of things. I have mention in the past how Believers should be edifying one another. How we aught to be carrying one and other burdens but at the same time how we should also correct when there is sin. Sometimes this is a hard balance, sometimes it comes easily. I guess it depends what we each struggle with.
Our Rabbi has said several times during the last few weeks, that if a junkie were to see where they’d be later in life. They would probably not start the drug at all, but because they have a promise of enlightenment they do it, they don’t think about the needle hanging in the arm after they overdosed for the last time.
A demon doesn’t have to stay with us after we have learned what it wants us to. I know this from experience, I didn’t grow up in a encouraging environment, I no longer need those people in my life. Shoot I didn’t need them by the time I was 16, but I still have those messages which can be played back if I let my guard down or don’t focus on G-dly things. Often times I am reminded how easy it is to go back to those old messages, but sometimes I can fight them off just fine.
We as believers need to guard against these things, and focus on the word of G-d sometimes it is hard. Especially when it feels nothing is exactly working the way we want it to.
I am still trying to figure out how not to let things like money trouble not stress me or the feeling of I gotta come up with so much money in the next 8 months for school. Boy I hope I find some good scholar ships and don’t hurt my GPA in any class. It hard not to think about life things like this, but at the same time I know I should give it to the L-rd and do what I can. I believe sometimes we as believers need to make ourselves ready and willing to move in the direction the L-rd would instruct us. It hard sometimes not to let some of our selfish desires not get in the way.
Kind of the want of a home theater furniture and knowing the money isn’t there still buying it, or using money which is intended for other things.
Nothing wrong with having or getting something unless it something that takes away from the family. For me I have to decide if in a year I can manage to come up with the extra money each month which is currently more then I make in a month or if I am just going to have to say take yet another leave until I can pay off some of the loans which could take another 3 to 4 years which means I will be at square one.