Shouldn’t have worried

We have not because we ask not, we are all familiar with this verse. I have spent a little time in prayer about schooling and how to come up with the money for it. I was worried that next year I wouldn’t have enough money to cover my college expense, because they told me I only had enough to cover for this year. I was just going to deal with it next year and start putting away money this year. But couldn’t see from where or how.
There are a few things I have been needing, so I started praying. I wasn’t asking G-d for the money to go to school, but how I was going to do it. Sometimes I think I have the wrong question, of how am I going to do this, when G-d’s probably saying you have not because your not asking or relying on yourself more then me or something total different. I am not saying this is what G-d said to me, but lately I been having a theme of that verse popping in my head at the oddest times. Today at work I was praying for my friend as I said in another post, I got good news from her, and then tonight financial aid called me with more good news. She wanted to let me know not to worry about the invoices I’d be getting from the school over the next couple of months, because financial aid would cover that, but she is waiting for my transfer credits to show up again. She told me I was considered as a 2nd semester Junior this helps when applying for scholarships which I will be doing this year. Why am I going to apply for scholarships when I know G-d can provide, because sometimes we have to help ourselves too. If I sit her and say G-d will provide but I do nothing at all, it be unwise to expect a check to come in the mail for college. I know it’s possible that could happen but until then I have to try other means too.
While talking to my financial adviser from school she was letting me know some changes and was a little confused with how many classes my credits equaled she told me, and as she was talking I realized she was wrong. I corrected her, and let her now how many classes it was and how many classes I should have lift if I get my forty credits from the other college. I am a student on the flexnet program at the UOP.
I will say, I am very impressed with the professors and staff there. I went to bible college before there, and almost flunked out. I lift bible college very broken, and doubted G-d could ever use me in anything. I felt like I was beyond stupid, and I would never succeed in college. UOP is considered here as a private college because of the arrangement they have, but it is accredited and I can get state grants if I qualify for them.
I wasn’t going to encourage with this post, but it just changed direction. If you have drop out of college because of believing you couldn’t succeed or what have you. Maybe professors have said you can never learn or other not so encouraging things. I know from experience just because you don’t succeed at one college it doesn’t mean you can’t somewhere else. I know for me what work at the UOP is the way their classes are, and how they are willing to work. What has helped me also is the small classes because if I don’t understand something, I don’t feel so threaten not to ask for help because I don’t want other to think I am stupid.
Out of anywhere where I should have gotten encouragement it should have been bible college but it didn’t happen there. When I first went to UOP my first enrollment person gave me a mustard seed coin. I still have that coin and sometimes I look at it when I get discourage because my class is very hard and I don’t think I will ever grasp the material in time. It was amazing that she had more faith and confidence in me then I had in me. Usually when you leave a college with a GPA like mine you have to prove yourself to them to prove you can do it. After my second class, I was told by someone there that they don’t think it was me at the last college, because they could tell by how hard I tried and said it was the other college not being the right fit.
Finding the right college is so important, you want to be encouraged but at the same time you need to be challenged to learn and grow. If your taking a class where you just required to spew out what the professor says, than maybe it’s not learning. What I like about the UOP is that you have the learn the material and the professor bring it into clear view, they make the work show in our lives. In accounting I don’t have many examples I can go with, but that’s okay I am still passing the class and doing well at that. I have talked to both my academic adviser and enrollment person several times during this class.
They wanted to make sure I was doing well and was okay, kind of the check in and see how your doing. I never got that at the Bible college, shoot I had people being told by people in authority to not be around me because I had trouble in my past. I honestly have to say that most of my healing has came through my experience at UOP and when I graduate, that one professor from the Bible college will get a little with my grades and degree attached, saying, “you said I couldn’t, they said I could, and I now know I can!” I am so close to being done, I know bragging isn’t G-dly, but maybe if I say something to that one professor who I valued so much at the time. He will realize tiering his students down isn’t helpful and maybe encouragement is more important. I am not saying I only hear encouragement, because if I am not doing well I hear about it from the professor. I have had one professor at the UOP, I don’t much care for him because he is hard. I hope he don’t remember me from my last class with me, maybe he will expect less if he don’t remember me. He expects a lot from his students, most of their professor do including the one I have now. I won’t say I dislike him because I don’t dislike him, He a okay person, I just well know I am in for a lot of hard work.
Finding a good college is like finding the right ac compressor, if you find the right one it works great. Now I will say my program isn’t for everyone because it requires me to have a lot of self motivation. I have time scheduled everyday except for Saturday, for homework. I came in and that’s what I do, don’t try talking to me or sharing anything with me until I am completed with my work.