Some relief

Today I got a text message from my best friend. She like a sister to me, we have bible study with her and her husband a couple times a month. A few weeks ago she called me scared and stressed out, she started with the I know you’re already facing a lot of things, but I need someone. She the type of friend who makes you willing to help her any way even if it’s just a ear for listening or a shoulder for crying.
She was worried she might have a brain tumor because of a few problems with her, between my husband mom and her, I was a mess. I told my husband if she is seriously ill, I can’t handle this too, I just can’t. I won’t say I prayed right away because I didn’t I did the get frustrated and angry thing. I was angry that my husband mom is having problems, and is frankly going to die soon. I wasn’t angry at my best friend but kind of felt like, why is death all around me, about to take those I love.
Last night I got a call from another friend, and she was in a home for elderly because she got pneumonia and needed a blood transfusion, I was worried about her before I knew what was wrong with her, but I prayed.
I have been doing a lot of praying expecially at work because I have to much time on my hand for thoughts and sometimes that not good. Today I was feeling a little bewildered at how hard it was to have a single thought to pray or worship with, my mind was just every where, shoot I should try to write a book with my imagination. I wasn’t in a talkative mood, so I tried to stay quiet and invisible which is hard to do at work.
I got a text message from my friend while I was thinking about her and if she heard back. Everything came back normal, everything is clean, except for one thing. I guess she got two extra discs, not that’s weird but not any weirder then me with no ad noes to begin with. With all of her health troubles I wonder if she can get term life insurance, now days it important especially with the cost of funerals. I am thankful that mom and dad have insurance, because that means, the family only has 90 to pay and what ever the headstone cost will be.