Gotta have faith

The last couple of months have been hard on me. Today I was chatting in one of the chat rooms I go to asking for prayer for my Father in Law, and Granny. I was pming with a friend who I have chatted with for about 10 years. Man I been online forever. She a sweet woman and I was sharing with her some of the things Craig and I are going through.
I have been with out a job since my mom in law passed away, and haven’t found anything yet. I have started to wonder if I will ever find any business jobs that want me. Didn’t help today that I got a rejection letter in the mail.
When I was in the chat room someone had a word and I wonder if it might have been for me but I haven’t been asking G-d anything or to make a way because I don’t feel anything is yet impossible. I am frustraited because I know I am a good worker. Now to hear granny is in the hopsital, Hubby dad feeling suicidle and me with out work and knowing if anything happens to granny there is going to be no way to go down and see her. Well I am sure we can make away even if it means trading in a few games I enjoy, or a few movies I enjoy. I know I have to trust the L-rd. I know everything will work out and I just have to find what that is..