So what if I nervous

I didn’t know what else to name this title, because I am not nervous. Lately going to services have been unpleasant to say the least. I won’t say I am overly shy, and probably once you get to know me I not shy at all. Now put me in a group with people I don’t know then I become more shy. I wouldn’t call it nervousness, because I am not nervous.
This weekend was just not one of my better weeks. I am known to move a lot in service and most of the time I don’t even realize I am doing it. I am not doing it because of nervousness, I used to do it because of that and when I am nervous it way worst then twirling my hair or moving a little bit in my seat to uncross and recross my legs. If I am nervous I start kicking my feet, or doing other rather annoying things. I am a person with a lot of energy, it’s just the way I am. Rabbi don’t seem to care, neither does our Rabbi in action. When I worship lately I been twisting my hair a lot, not sure where that came from or why it’s there, maybe I am trying to be contained or something.
I used to always feel accepted and love there but lately I just feel not so loved, like all my flaws other people are telling me about it in front of other people.
We where done stairs for lunch and this guy comes up to me to me and says your a nervous person, your always moving your leg or twirling your hear. blah blah blah, after a little bit of simply hearing about all the things he didn’t like about my personality I have my husband the look. Hubby never said anything to me. He’s worried about losing his job there if he offends a congregant, or upsets them. So I am lift feeling attacked and unaccepted for me. Yes I move around alot, so what if I am nervous. I just wonder if they guy realizes pointing out to someone they are nervous can make them more so nervous. Something he doesn’t know and not many do is I started doing this a round a lot of people many years ago growing up as a kid. It was my way to handle rejection, now I do it subconsciously and it has nothing to do with being reject just that it’s a habit. Plus when I am twisting my hair or wiggling around a bit, I seem to learn a lot more that way.
We are to edify and build up each other, and it might be good if we stop looking for things about people we do not like. If that person ever took 5 minutes to focus on me as a individual and not the things he don’t like he might know I am a human being who has feelings, and being picked on hurts. Not to mention it’s embarrassing, and shouldn’t happen.
We was asked if we would come to the Thanksgiving dinner and frankly I do not want to go to it. I haven’t wanted to for several weeks because I have been feeling not exactly accepted. The more I feel not accepted the more nervous I become and the more figitive I get. I know he not the only person that has said something, but still enough is enough. Since I don’t know his name I can’t talk to leadership to get help with him, maybe what I need to do next time it happens walk over to one in leadership and ask them for help dealing with this person.
One good thing with the amount of wiggling in my seat it’s good they not wood flooringbecause that would be noisy. I am not trying to be unorderly, but I never know I am doing it. I know about the twisting my hair because I see myself doing it, but it’s quiet and I learn more when I am doing something with my hands.
People who naturally have a lot of energy don’t need to hear about they already know they are doing it. We don’t do it to drive people nuts like happens a lot but we do it because it just one of our idiosyncrasy. I don’t mind people wanting to try to be helpful but helpful isn’t your a nervous person and here’s why. Helpful not sure what that would be maybe suggestion of how to deal with it if that’s the case. I guess what I am trying to say if your about to say something that not being used for the purpose of edifying or building up another at church maybe it’s best not to say nothing at all.