In your head

A few weeks ago dad said something that really hurt me. He told my husband and I we where to Jewish in the head. I felt very hurt and frustrated because we have only invited him and lift him decide if he wants to go to church or not. After we got home I went into our bedroom, because I just didn’t want to deal with dad. I needed space. Yes I love dad and forgave him right away. I never stopped loving him and never will, dad was off of one of his meds which is monthly. He needed a hormone shoot and since he gotten it he been a lot easier to deal with, he hasn’t cussed me out, or told me how stupid I am. Dad wasn’t being positive and I can’t handle that type of interaction when that the only interaction. So I go and hide in away, because I figure I am not around, you can’t say anything ugly to me.
My husband and I talked about it, and he felt hurt to and shocked. I felt insulted because even if I believe in the Yeshua as the Messiah, that doesn’t change the fact of what I am, and nothing can change that so hearing your to Jewish well hurt in a way that wasn’t pleasant. My husband and I talked about it, and came to the conclusion that even though he said what he said it wasn’t what we did but how we lived out our lives. It’s not a bad thing, it’s just in our heads as he said and he is not used to people living out what they believe.
Very seldomly do I cuss about something, I won’t say I don’t because sometimes I do say things I later regret. This week dad was talking about some stuff and was asking me question and said he was worried that I was pressured to believe what I do. Nope what I believe is natural feels right to me. I know it has to be hard living here with hubby and I because we do not let G-d name be used with cussing, when we watch movies and it uses his name cussing I turn it off. Hubby wants a 3 strike rule then its out.
We say for the most blessing before eating and hubby and I often discuss things of the Torah.
Dad never had to live with this type of thing where a good portion of talk is focus on G-d but a great portion isn’t focus on the L-rd.
Since dad has had his hormone shot he been easier to deal with, and happier too. It’s amazing how if your hormones are out of balance that it causes anger and a change of personality. It’s been good having dad living with us even when things have been rough, it’s like a good ball lock pins once you find one that works it becomes your favorite. Shadow the dog and Otis the Cat are finally getting along, Otis has put the dog in her place a few times.