I knew we are not alone

Sometimes things in life can make a person feel very alone almost like we are on a oasis. My husband and I are feeling at times it’s just us, even though we know we are not the only one experiencing what we are, and there are many children of aging parents who have experience what we are going through. I know Yeshua is there for us, and G-d will not us down, but sometimes we still feel alone. Sometimes it gets to much for my husband or I to listen to what going on or has happened because we feel we have to solve it, me more then him. I am someone when I know a problem is their I want to fix it, I am a problem solver. By nature I hear things I feel I have to solve it. My husband doesn’t know how to respond to things always and doesn’t like to talk about problems there because it overwhelms or stresses him out, but lately with the things going on he been talking more, and we been talking more about.
Lets see what’s been going on, Dad’s memory has gotten worst. He doesn’t remember things very well and it seems to have gotten worst since mom passed away. I almost wonder if his memory was this bad when mom was a live, and mom just covered it up. My husband wonders the same thing. The doctor tried a while known Alzheimer drug that made him, not easy to deal with! He attack me verbally and my husband. Mixed dreams and reality and accused my husband of taking him bowling in his bedroom and doing nothing when he got dizzy. And said he was calling out to my hubby and no one responded. Well, I am a extremely light sleeper so I would have woke up. So I doubting he was calling anyone for help because I wouldn’t sleep through him calling out for help, shoot I wake up when he goes to the bathroom. I wake up with my husband is moving around, so how’d I miss him screaming I think it be hard.
He accused us of doing other things we never did, so things got very upsetting for me and hubby both. Dad pretty much that night told us that night we took everything from him. Meaning mom, his car, money everything, which we didn’t. His car engine is bad and it’s not worth it to put a new engine in it, and dad can barely see well and lets be honest he can’t hear nothing. So he can’t be driving around. The bank accounts we had to take over because he was being taken advantage of and was gambling it all away too, and writing checks with out knowing if there was money in it.
I know I didn’t take mom from him, my husband has asked him if he realizes mom is no longer there where they lived, and that we can visit her grave. It was very hurtful being accused of taking mom away, I know dad didn’t realize what he was saying, but it still hurts when he attacking hubby and I, we aren’t like acardboard displays, we feel things, even though we hold it in.
Dad ended up on a month of casino restriction because of getting in my face and yelling at me and doing the same to my hubby we felt there needed to be some kind of consequence. The most difficult thing to deal with is watching dad memory get worst and it seems like it’s a daily thing. Dad doesn’t even remember the name of the town he lives in.