A little disappointed

It’s final I get to walk the line come September. I am finally close enough to being completed with my BS. A couple weeks ago I called my mom to let her know I would be finally graduating from college. She told me she wanted to come up, and to find out airfare prices. I told her I would do that after I found out the date of my graduation, well I found out the information the other day. Naturaully I felt excited about it. I have proved the Bible college I went to wrong, and many other people. I have even in a sense proved it to myself that I can graduate from higher education, and with a strong GPA too.

So I decided it was time to call mom, it’s two month away. So I don’t understand. When I called mom she said she can’t go because they had to buy a car, which is less then we pay for rent her. My mom doesn’t have a lot of rental expenses because they live with her hubby best friend in their garage apartment and last I knew they was paying 250 a month. Not much at all. Well I should not be surprised she didn’t even make it to my high school graduation. I know I shouldn’t let it disappoint or hurt me, but it does, I expected this much and it still hurts. I understand cars break down, I get it. I understand mom has a life outside of me, I am not trying to be spoiled or anything. I just want my mom to be there for me when it’s important graduating from college is big, getting married is big, and graduating from high school for any teen is important and very Big! It’s not like I expect her to come out for my birthday, shoot I am lucky if I get a happy B-day card.

I know I am greatful for my husband parents, I know his dad will be at my graduation. It’s just not the same as my mother being there. I know if his mom was a live and well, she would have even came for that. It just really bugs me that my husband parents are there for me more then my own mother. I know as a believer I have to forgive my mom, and I do, I always do, but it doesn’t stop it from hurting when she not there.

My husband dad told me if I needed help for the stuff I needed for graduation to take it from him. It’s amazing how supportive you are of me. To bad I can not buy what I need from wholesale clothing, I know I will need to probably get a new outfit or at least something that won’t be hot under the cap in gown but at the same time warm enough for a September day in MN.