Coming back together

It looks like our new little congregation is coming back together with the larger one. I hate to admit this but I have mix feelings, and thinking about taking a few weeks away to pray and well maybe deal with my attitude. I wouldn’t say it bad, but I just well don’t feel I fit anywhere there, right now. I don’t want to work with children, because I do that 5 days a week and I don’t want to get burned out. I love my congregations, and I know I am liked there, but it’s just hard when you are a part of ministry and you work hard to help it function to suddenly not have that. Maybe I am wrong but I felt like it was partly mine, I know it wasn’t but you know when your helping plant a congregation it hard not to feel that way. Our Rabbi is a wonderful teacher and I trust if he says G-d told him for a season to bring everyone back then that what must be done. We have one more week and then we move back to the main congregation.
I guess I need to spend some serious time with G-d, and seek our what I aught to do. Maybe for a season I should just be a regular congregant that does nothing. I am not mad about the change but I just don’t like change. Prayer is an important part of our faith, how else can we hear from G-d, I will admit lately I been having a difficult time doing what I been told to do. Now I am done with schooling for a season, I just don’t want to learn anything else, I think I need a Branson vacation packages but I won’t get one of those, for a long while.
I know G-d wants obedience and I will do it, probably should start it this week and have it done. What he’s asked or placed on my heart won’t take me but a few minutes, or well a few minutes every week and it aught to be something I can learn quickly. I don;’t know why but I just don’t feel like studying, I feel like just vegging out for a while.
Over the next few weeks hopefully I will be able to pick back up the guitar and play, and start composing stuff again. Which I have missed the last year or so, I don’t even think I remember anything. Maybe I will see if one of our congregants who teachers guitar can teach me a little more then I already now. I have self taught myself guitar so it might help me to have some lesson. But I am not sure if I will have time for it, and only learning for 5 or 6 months isn’t going to allow me to learn much, but I could be wrong. I would also like to take some time to learn some worship songs, while having a break from school. In August I will return to school.
To be honest going back to the larger congregation might be nice, because it will give some of us who went from there to the new congregation to catch up with old friends.