sharing

Some of the woman at the retreat have known me since I started at my congregation. I have made friends with many of them. Even though I have made friends with some of them not many know me very well, they only know what I been willing to share, or well not hide. This weekend I shared something with a friend, and I was surprise to know she didn’t know I write songs, or played guitar. I have hidden a good portion of my talents from my congregation due to having a lot of broken trust, and not wanting people to know about it. I have shared with a handful of people about my love for music, and about how I write songs but I don’t feel a need to tell everyone.
Sometimes I think people hear something different then me because I hear my voice and think it don’t sound right. Yet many people tell me I am a good singer, and have encouraged me. Long story short I decided I needed an accountability partner to get me back on the right track, since dad moved in I have not touch the guitar but maybe once or twice. I honestly doubt it been more then that. I told a few people I was planning on taking lesson from our worship leader who a great guitar player, and probably could teach me a lot. I told them I want to get past where I am at because I don’t play as well as I want to.
During worship our guest was doing a song and it was a little high, and she started singing harmony, which meant no one was singing with her. I tried to get the melody line which was way to high for my comfortable range but I can do it, just not sounding good. I thought it sounded horrible, but they thought it was more helpful then I thought it was, I am more of a altoish singer so to sing very high is normally not a comfortable thing. I can hit the high notes but if I am staying up there it a little more uncomfortable. Sometimes we have to listen to our sister in the L-rd when they encourage us and not our own thoughts or reasoning because sometimes we are our own worst critics.
Just like when your expecting a baby, if someone recommends
liquid prenatal vitamin your probably going to do that. We seem to listen to friends or Sisters in the L-rd sometimes on commonsense things but not always when it comes to us on a personal level.