Gonna start explaining

Dad has sometimes told people things that are not true, looking for sympathy which sometimes gets me asked question. I have decided I am gonna start explaining what is going on in our family not in great detail but in enough details so people understand why we do what we do. Dealing with an aging parent is hard, and it is the right thing for my husband and I to do. I often get asked why I do not have kids, it frustrating when people ask this question. I am not any less of a woman because I do not have children. I care for dad and I can’t take care of a baby and him. Dad has gotten easier and less confirmative since we stop doing the
testosterone boosters every few weeks. This being said I still do not want to try to have a baby with my husband and deal with a large amount of stress. This would not be healthy for me or the child, so why would I want to risk it health or even mine. Someone asked me to day what if he lives for 20 years, well if he lives for 20 years, then it wasn’t meant for me to have children. He would reach 108 years old, and honestly, I do not think that will happen, the Alzheimer’s is to advanced for that to happen. Now if I pass childbearing age, there is adoption and there are a lot of unwanted children. I explained to someone today and they understood what I was getting at, but I felt pressure. When I feel pressure I usually will get very direct with people to leave them know clearly where I stand on a subject. Right now I feel G-d has told me to care for dad, this might mean no children but you know if G-d can give a child to a virgin and give child to a woman beyond childbearing age, he can do the same for me. If it is His will.