Fears

I am not one to think to much about things that I am fearful of there are a few things I have struggled with. The things I have struggled with I have always succeeded for the most. I am starting my masters program this month and a little nervous about the structure of the school but I also know that I can do it. The other night I was talking to my friend, about my husband and mine marriage. From the very beginning of our relationship, we have cared for his parents. Our entire marriage has been build around his dad since mom died and before her death it was on both of his parents. Sometimes it feels like our entire marriage has had a lot of crisis, caring for his parents, the death of a parent, and sometimes my grandma has needed me to come home and help care for her. My husband family is absent from helping dad. My family, has only asked for help, or my opinion on things a few times, but they do not expect me to be the fix it all.
It has been frustrating for my husband and me, because we can not trust just anyone to care for dad. One of my fears is when dad passes away how will my husband and my relationship fair when we have spent so much time caring for them. Have we really built a relationship that solid with each other. Marriage is not something a one a day vitamin can be taken to keep together. I feel like my husband and I have a solid relationship and we are going in the same direction. The fear I have is when dad pass away, this is gonna affect both of us. It will affect him because that is his dad. It will affect me because I love his dad, and I have been the one who working with him mostly. I know there will come a time and I will end up feeling lost because it will be like losing something I am used to doing everyday.
My friend told me that we had nothing to worry about, because we work well together and communicate. Now she hasn’t seen all the times where our communication is more yelling at each other then calmly speaking.