no regrets

Not sure why I am saying no regrets, because I have been feeling a little guilty the last couple of days. I have been faithfully taking care of my husband dad but taking care of him isn’t like a medical and healthcare jobs because he doesn’t require those services. Why do I feel guilty, because a few months ago I had to help my family decide to put Granny in a home. I feel bad because there was nothing I could do to help her and because I am taking care of my father.
Granny took care of me as a teen, and in many ways she is a big part of why I have succeeded the way I have. She had faith in me, and did not let the state take me back when dad died. She was the only one to show me I was wanted and loved. I know she requires 24 hour care which I wouldn’t be able to provide to begin with but I still feel bad. I love her and would rather not have her in a home. I also feel bad because my husband and I have not made it down for a visit. I might decide to go down during my break week if we can escape for a weekend, to see her. She always asks me to come down when she realizes who I am. There are days she confuses me with her friend, and this is painful and hard to deal with, because she saw me as another child of hers.
Sometimes I do not want to call her because I don’t want to deal with her not knowing who I am. I know she can’t help it. I know I deal with it from dad too, but you know its a different kind of emotional pain. Dad isn’t my father and well he not my Granny who like a mom to me. All I can do is pray for her, and try to see her before her time is over.