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Hanukkah almost here again

admin — Tue, 06 Dec 2011 21:04:27 +0000

This will be the first Hanukkah, I will do totally gluten-free. I am not sure how I will like that because boy I love the deserts this time of year. I could tract all the yummies I like on a michael kors watch because there so many tasty things. Oh well I have some nice things I can eat.
One thing I have been thinking about with Hanukkah, is the people there at the time. They didn’t want to bow down to what man wanted and didn’t want to worship false gods. They stood strong in the temple, and only had a little bit of oil. This oil lasted a lot longer then it should have, at the time.
I wonder what things would be like if we would stand our ground the way they did over Hanukkah and not wavering away form what G-d has instructed us to do. Yeshua and his disciples celebrated this holiday. Since I have already talked about it in a previous post I will not post the scripture again, because that post is easy to find. This holiday is one that teaches us of G-d’s protection and how he provides when there is clearly no way that man can make it work out for them. It shows G-d faithfulness to his people when they do as he instructs them.
Recently I heard a Rabbi say the Torah not a law but instructions. There are things that are still to be followed, and things we can not follow because we don’t live in the land or because we simply can not. However every promise G-d has made there been a condition it’s the same when you believe in Yeshua there is a condition. We have to walk out our faith. I have said this many times, we have robbed our selves of G-ds feast and festivals, his appointed time. Since I have started observing these times I have been blessed, I have learned. There are blessing in his holidays and celebration, and I wish others would see that, would understand it.
Hanukkah, is a great example of how G-d provided for his people, how he brought them through a time of struggle. This is one of the holiday we celebrate I do not think is commanded to celebrate but considering Yeshua celebrated it I think it okay if I do. I know he didn’t celebrate Christmas, or Easter, and well who would never have. We are told not to celebrate the way pagans do and those two holiday got their roots in pagan holidays. I have wrote about this too, in previous blog post. Feel free to look it up.

uhoh I got the flipper

admin — Sun, 29 May 2011 01:28:08 +0000

My husband preached last night. He did a very good job, and I appreciated his sermon, he pointed out a couple of things I did not realize. He spoke on G-ds dietary commands. I like how he said the first sin was a dietary sin of eating the only thing in the Garden G-d told Adam and Eve not to eat. What he said made sense, maybe had I not had the remote I wouldn’t have listen as well to him. My first thought was Uhoh i got the flipper now I have to listen to what he saying and make sure I change the screen in time.
At least we are beyond the bridal shower invitations, but when we move to Oregon we will need to do some kind of invites. My husband told someone that we decided to not put G-ds call on hold because of his Dad. I never really saw it as being on hold because of Dad but our original plan was to wait till dad was gone, but when G-d calls we can’t wait for that, we have to go.

Guess I better pay attention

admin — Sun, 15 May 2011 03:53:04 +0000

Today I helped with flipping the screens, so I had to listen to Rabbi sermon. Don’t get me wrong I always listen to Rabbi sermon. Today he spoke more on the Laws of G-d and how they where not abolished by Yeshua or his disciples. I understand this and I know it well. I have struggled at some churches because the way I was reading and understanding did not line up with what was being taught, now I found a place where I believe the same way.
It is amazing how many of the commandments of G-d have been taken away, and how we are okay with this. It is easier to live with G-d commandments and what he has told us to do. Even in the new Testament there are examples of his personality. His behaviors, and what he expects us to be.
Sometimes it seems like we need more US Business Lawyers in our faith than the world does because of our behaviors. So I think I will continue living out my faith the way I believe G-d intended in the first place.

Protecting the date night

admin — Sun, 27 Feb 2011 23:05:56 +0000

Yes I still date my husband, it great. It is important to have a special day every week to spend with your spouse and I know it helps my husband and I grow closer together. Yes I get mad at him and some weeks would rather not spend any time with him at all. My husband has been supportive of me and I try to be supportive of him, but my husband wouldn’t support me on gettingdiet pills that work because I been losing wait since going Gluten free.
Why do I still date my husband, he already got me. Well see if we stop having time together, if we stop dating eachother we might get bored and we might drift apart especially since dad lives with us. We can not always talk because dad in some respects is like a child. When Hubby and I argue, dad worries we might divorce and who does he go with if that happens. This time allows us to share with each other, talk about thing in the home like money that naturally the worry wort, he get upset about it. So most of hubby and I talks happen out of the home. Sometimes we email each other which keeps dad out of the middle.
I will not give up our date nights after dad is gone neither, but I might be more flexible when those nights happen during the week. So yes we will tell people no to doing ministries or parties or other things on our date nights, but not because we don’t want to serve or spend time but because we value our 1 on 1 time.

Allow room for Growth

admin — Sun, 17 Oct 2010 00:36:41 +0000

My husband gave the sermon today, and he did a good job. Let me tell you all if my husband does not do well, I would have not troubles telling him so, or if I disagree with something, I will talk to him about it. Now I have grown a lot, I will not tell him in front of people when I disagree but I will tell him when he done a good job on something in front of people. My husband spoke about Act 15 where Paul and his partner were dealing with the Jewish and Gentile believers. My husband explained this in a good way. So I would suggest going to his messianic blog and reading it because I will not do it justice. My husband brought up that this happened because of some religious leaders making it to overwhelming for the gentile believers at the time. Paul did not want them to become discourage or disheartened. The gentiles would have been used to things a certain way back then so starting them off with what Paul said was the best way. It a minimum requirement but now as you grow in your faith you change. When I first became a believer in Yeshua there was a lot of things I would have thought was okay that now I wouldn’t even think about doing. When I came to my messianic congregation I would have searched out
what are the best diet pills and put anything in my body no matter what the consequences are, I would have ate shell fish if that what was served. I have been allergic to pork for a long time, so that was not an issue. Before I found the messianic movement I felt G-d telling me to stop eating unclean foods, but my Christian friends told me I could eat it, so I doubted I heard G-d correctly. When I started at my congregation, suddenly what G-d had told me because real, and I understood it. Rabbi gave a sermon and right away I felt I needed to repent for not listening or following through what G-d said to me. I once told my husband giving up shell fish would be hard, but you know it really was not hard. How do I handle my family, I just let them now I do not eat shell fish because I feel G-d has told me. Now I do not tell them they cannot eat what they want to eat.
At church sometimes people will say so much and you know rabbi already given a sermon and they have a lot to think about. Now giving them more rules or regulation will discourage them and become overwhelming very quickly. In time G-d will show them, and sometimes we as believer need to allow G-d to take care of his people.

Interesting take

admin — Sun, 03 Oct 2010 03:15:58 +0000

Today Rabbi did both commentary and sermon. I like it when Rabbi does both some weeks. Rabbi was talking about the sin in the garden the original one. He pointed out that Adam and Eve both did not own up to their sin, they place the blame on someone else. Adam blamed Eve and pretty much G-d too, by telling G-d it was the woman you put here. Eve blamed the serpent, but in a way I wonder if her answer was more truthful. See Adam was there with Eve when she ate the fruit, so he should have spoken up and stop his wife, he should have protected her from sinning. G-d told him Not to eat from that Tree and he told Eve. It was his responsibility to remind her what G-d said to them. Now this being said that’s still blaming the other for the actions of the other. Eve answer was the serpent confused me. Rabbi question was what would have happened if Adam and Eve both admitted to their sin and not place blame on someone else. Well I wouldn’t need any acne cream probably if they owned their own sin. As humans and believers, we often want to blame other for our actions and not take responsibility for what we have done, or how we have behaved. I am someone who hardly ever say sorry. When I do say sorry it’s when I feel I have been wrong and need to change that when I will apologize other wise to me apologies are empty and mean nothing. Having a heart after G-d means admitting to faults and sin committed like David did and well frankly he was fair from perfect. What can we learn from Adam and Eve and others of our Faith the things that pleased G-d and why it pleased him.

In the Shadow of his wing

admin — Sun, 19 Sep 2010 02:53:56 +0000

Sometimes I really believe G-d has my husband and I in the Shadow of His wing. Today me and my hubby both where not being very good example of Yeshua. We where both pretty nasty to each other in the morning probably me more so then him. Well I normally take the main highway to church until we get to the back way. Today for some reason they had closed down the 2 left lanes of the high way, I was already in the lane I needed, and suddenly traffic came to a dead stop. I was able to stop with a little distance between the car in front of me, but not enough room to safely get around him or her. I was parked for a good while, I was praying kind of more of the okay G-d I am just going to complain at you and have a bad attitude, and complain that I started my day off happy and singing and now I just simply annoyed. So I was sitting there, and happen to look up in my rear view mirror to see a car spending up to me. Oh ****, don’t hit me. His tires squealed on the road, and I was sure he was going to hit me. I took my good of the break in hopes that if I went a little forward nothing would happen. I honestly thank G-d had me and my husband under the shadow of his wing, because there was no way that car should have stopped there. G-d was mericiful to me today, my husband and dad both did not have their seatbelts on and I always make sure everyone in the car is seat belt but I was too busy being annoyed that I asked for help and didn’t get it. Maybe it that’s none of us had our hearts in the right place to deal with a bad accident. I know even if it wasn’t my fault I would feel responsible for any injuries my passengers received because of an accident my or the other driver. After I realize neither one of the men had on their seat belt I yelled at both of them a little more, shoot I don’t need
diet pills for women that actually work, because lately I been losing weight. I think I need some happy pills lately in the morning on the Sabbath, or pills that won’t let me go batty, when people do things that drive me nuts. I just praise G-d nothing happen today to my family and G-d was merciful to us.

Yom Kippur

admin — Fri, 17 Sep 2010 19:01:50 +0000

Yom Kippur means the day of atonement. This is one of G-d’s appointed times, something G-d told us to do. It is a fast day, thank goodness its only 24hours or so. Yom Kippur falls on a Sabbath so to me it is a extra special Sabbath day. Yom Kippur is also a great time to come to repentance, and seek the L-rd on ways we need to change, or how we can because more like him. In the Jewish and Messianic faith this is the holiest holiday. During this time it is probably wise not to work from Sundown tonight to Sundown tomorrow. I love it when G-d’s Appointed times happen on a Sabbath because I do not have to worry about forgetting to do everything that needs to be done before sundown on a normal Sabbath. If I need to read benzaclin reviews, it will be done or will have to wait until after the Sabbath. The hardest part of this Sabbath will be the no food or fasting. I know a few who fast water and food both but I cannot do that because I have to be able to take meds for breathing. Tonight I will have to make dinner early for dad and I or run out and pick up some food for dad and I. I haven’t decided what I will do yet. I just know I have to do a few things before the time is here. It’s the don’t work, don’t eat, and spend time seeking G-d holiday for me. Now i spend time seeking him daily so it doesn’t really add anything as far as my time with the master.

Why is Forgiveness so important

admin — Fri, 03 Sep 2010 16:00:11 +0000

I have been thinking about forgiveness this week a lot and why its so important. Why do we need to forgive, and who is it really for them or us. Now forgiveness doesn’t mean you put the person back to the same place as they where especially when that person has harmed you in a way that destructive. I believe sometimes forgiveness is to mend fences and bring healing to relationships when this can be accomplish but sometimes it can not be accomplish. When someone tries to kill, rape, or abuse you these are the hardest to forgive but we still must forgive, but they must stay out of our lives for our own safety. I was raped in my early 20, it was hell because it was by someone I looked up to and respected and who claimed to be a prophet of G-d. I will not get into what all happened, because it won’t change nothing about the need to forgive him, and for any young readers who read my page. I do not want to damage them by showing them how bad the world can be. This week I met a dear woman, who been through what I have been through. I saw a difference between her and I and I saw me in her about 5 years ago, before G-d told me I had to forgive that person. Will I ever let him in my life again and restore his place in my life no, G-d didn’t say that. I have always wonder why G-d said I must forgive this person when he used G-d name in vain. I know G-d told me what I needed to do and revenge was for him, so was judgment. It took me a long time to forgive, and I have to say the bitterness I had isn’t there. I believe G-d tells us to forgive for our own hearts and mind, when we are holding hate and unforgiveness in our lives this causes us to react and behaved as a wounded person. Wounded people, wound others, or if they are like me they just do not trust anyone and keep everyone at a distance and do it in ways where people simple do not want to try to get to know them.
Before I forgave him, I was bitter and angry and when someone would say something to me, I would respond. I cannot say I ever inflected physical pain on someone because I never want to be the one that does that but emotional pain I could dish. How did I forgive him, with G-d help, when I felt G-d say do this I pretty much told G-d I couldn’t with out his help. I am happier and healthier too. I also don’t feel as much guilt as I used to. I still sometimes when people say things that are stupid about victims have to bit my tongue but I do not take it personal like I used to, I get annoyed more when I hear someone who been harmed being told it was their fault. This I have a lot harder time dealing with, not because it makes me feel guilty but because I know the shame and guilt that person going through and they do not need any more added on by unwise commits.
So I believe forgiveness has two functions one is for our own good, and the other one is to mend relationships. Even if my attacker where to want to apology I wouldn’t want to see him, because I can’t trust he really changed. Now forgiveness with wisdom is one thing. I do believe that pastors and other clergy need to more schooling on this and how to help heal the wound and not ask well how could you allow that to happen, because it not something that you simply allow. It’s a lost of control in life and one of the worst feelings I have had to deal with in my life. I mean its not like breaking your favorite pair of
Christian Louboutin shoes, or your favorite china dish. It like something that so deep, that there is no need for further damage. I have found forgiveness to be healing because allows you to move on, and get a closer relationship with G-d. I know my relationship with G-d was damaged, I believe anyone who hasn’t went through this even if G-d name wasn’t used for the act have a hard time keeping their faith in G-d. I get it, because I asked the same questions about my faith. I was even mad at G-d for a long time, because he allowed it. I like what one of my friends told me, he was working on a music career at the time I should look him up, and see how he is doing. He told me something along the line of sometimes people do not yield to G-d and their free well overpowers someone else, and it not the well of G-d for it to happen. So coming from a place of understand forgiveness is healing for us, not always for the person who done us wrong.

No more bible college for me

admin — Sun, 08 Aug 2010 02:39:29 +0000

Today I was sharing with some people and someone bless their heart had suggested I go to a Christian college for my master in counseling. Everytime someone suggests I go to a Christian college I just want to crawl out of my skin. It took me a long time to even go back to college and with much encouragement from my husband. I still feel at times I am not good enough or smart enough, because of the words spoken to me by those in spiritual leadership. I wasn’t just told G-d could never use me, that no producer would be interested in my talent , ect. Someone in the psychology department told me I was too stupid to be in college. After so many negative words being spoken to me there I started believing this, and I still struggle with not believing those words, even though I graduated with a solid GPA high enough to get into almost any Master program I want to get it. I do not want to go to any Christian college because I have found secular colleges don’t care if you are “stupid”. The UOP never told me, I was stupid when I struggled to grasp concepts or ideas, they spoke with me never once making me feel inadequate to do the task at hand.
It amazes people when I tell them what I went through in Bible college, because this wasn’t Christ like behavior, and it caused me damage. I have gained a lot of confidence but I am terrified to leave UOP and go to another school because I am scared I will hear those ugly words. Of your not smart enough. Well maybe my intelligence shouldn’t have been question but the inability of the professor to explain things in a way I understood them. The your not talented or what have you.
Something I remembered today which I had forgotten for a long time. Was I was helping with worship at a church where they were close to some in the music department and I was told, “you’re not one of the top 2 best singers so you can’t sing anymore.” I think we as believers need to be careful of the words we speak. The words we speak can damage someone.
Yes I know I should not look for man approval, and I get after my husband for it. I have hide a lot of myself from people at church to try to protect myself, because I do not want to be hurt again. I have recently started allowing people to know me.
One of my friends at church pretty much told me today he was going to encourage me through my Master Program, which is nice. I know I can do it. The question is will I live in fear which eventually could give me serious problems. I can always just go for it, apply at other colleges for my master in Counseling or Social work, and pray they will have the same values but sadly, I do not think I will get it from my Brother and Sister in the L-rd and this saddens me.
I am honest about, I know I wasn’t the best student the first time I went to college. I didn’t know my learning style was and how to use it. I also went to a school that thought Dyslexia meant I was less of a person. I am not saying they should have kept me in the music department but then again they should have never accepted me into the music department if I wasn’t talented enough to begin with its not like I am something who doesn’t have feelings. I might not look as good as Hon office furniture, but I have my own quality. I wish I would have known it back then so I could have avoided the pain of the experiences.
Have I forgiven those people who have spoke cruelly to me yes, has it helped me yes in some ways but I think confidence will be something I struggle with until I am where I want to be.
To encourage those people who know what I am talking about and feel you can’t do it or not good enough, don’t listen to that, do not let the enemy rob you like he done me. To my friends who read this your encouragement has been valuable to me and has helped me not give up. Another thing Bible college can be great for some.