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Pray one hour

admin — Thu, 25 Feb 2010 01:31:59 +0000

In one of my Rabbi classes we are tasked with praying for a hour a day all at one time. I think this is a good practice to be in and fall out of the practice. He strongly encourages prayer in the morning this doesn’t work for me because the minute i get up dad seems to want to be up. So I like my prayer time at night which is where I’ve had them in the past. I aught to do some serious prayers about adult acne treatment because my face has been breaking out badly lately and it unpleasant. So I been trying to pray my hour this week, and I don’t know why but it seems like within a half hour no matter what time I try to pray I been falling asleep and waking up in the middle of the night. If I pray I fall right back to sleep, so hmm maybe I need a distraction other then quietness.
I might decide to make a worship list on my mp3 player, but the problem there is I might need to find a lot of different songs or I will be singing a long with it. I gotta figure out where my guitar cord chart went, or at least my cord book because I can’t find neither and forgot how to play a few cords. I know worship is an effective way of talking to G-d but it also can sometimes become a hinderance for me depending on how much of a singing mood i am in.

Finding time

admin — Fri, 29 Jan 2010 20:42:41 +0000

Praying isn’t like doing a pop displays, because sometimes it requires a lot more talking or sharing. The last couple weeks I been praying while driving home from or to work, because it is easier to do that less distraction of things. I know people who say you should pray right when you get up, or raise early and pray I do not not agree with this, I believe time spent with G-d needs to be when you are most alert or able to function best. My husband is not a morning person and frankly no one should be inflected with him in the morning, now that being said I love my hubby. I am more of a morning person then hubby I can be happy in the morning but I can get cranky pretty easily too. Hubby is a night owl, so he probably be happy talking to G-d way after I am a sleep and that’s okay as long as he has time to spend with HIM. My husband the other day brought up how sometimes people try to convince him to get up early and spend time praying, then I didn’t tell him this at the time, but was tempted too. What I would have told him was “Why so you can fall asleep.” I find for me the best time is in the middle of the day while dad is sleeping, because no one is around to disturb me. The important thing to do is find a time which works well. Grant it lately I been doing it in the car, so if I want I can speak outloud, so I am sure a lot of people think I am crazy but oh well.
Now does my day go better when I pray in the morning No, and hey if I need G-d he’s there anyways, and all I have to do is call on him. He never leaves, so why does it matter if I am a morning prayer, evening or late night prayer, it shouldn’t.

You don’t have

admin — Thu, 21 Jan 2010 21:53:46 +0000

Sometimes things around here get a little hectic with dad, and he doesn’t want to ask for what he needs or wants and then he gets mad when he doesn’t get it. Many times I have told him you do not have because you have not asked and we can’t read minds. I’ve been thinking about a few scripture which talk about asking for what you want or well maybe need, and the one I am thinking of talks about we have not because we don’t ask. A few years ago I was losing a lot of hair enough to worry me. I use to have very thick here, and let me tell you I didn’t want to do anyhair loss treatments, but I did pray. It wasn’t till after I got married that my hair started getting thicker, and I started noticing why. I noticed one day that when I am stressed or worried about something I start pulling or twisting my hair which isn’t good to do but it how I deal with somethings sometimes.
Even though G-d isn’t like us where he needs us to ask, so he knows what we need. I believe G-d has told us to ask HIM for what we want not for hisself but for our faith to grow our faith. Now I know G-d has many times provided me with what I needed with out me asking him for it, and you know normally during those time, my faith doesn’t grow very much but it does grow when I ask him for something I need. I believe prayer is more then just telling G-d what you need or want but also spending time listening and hearing him, and then obeying.

You never know

admin — Sun, 23 Aug 2009 03:24:21 +0000

Sometimes prayers get answered right away and sometimes it takes months, and maybe even years. It’s been almost 9 months since grandpa seen the middle grandchild and he finally got to see him to night, I can’t say I have seen him smile as big as he did tonight in a while, and very seldomly do I see him really smile.
When we where supposed to go down to see them, we were advised against it because of health concerns and emotional reason. It broke my heart saying no to the grand children but at some point you have to protect the parent from their children. I know the kids wouldn’t do anything to hurt him but the adults I don’t trust them any further then I can throw them.
Today we got a call and found out the one was here in town and wanting to see grandpa. We had to postpone until we got back tonight because they wanted to go swimming and well we wanted to be there. Sometimes I wish we had a mobile homes because it would make traveling long distances more easier for resting and doing other things.
I had asked a few people if they could keep us in prayers, to allow the middle one to come and stay with his brother for a little while. The summer was meant to be like that but sometimes family can get difficult to deal with.
It looks like some prayer has worked great because the nephew understands why grandpa wasn’t able to come down and doesn’t think it because of hubby and I.

Prayers and meetings

admin — Fri, 12 Sep 2008 17:38:17 +0000

Last night my husband and I tried a support group, we found it through the American Cancer Association. He had tried a group that wasn’t specif to cancer eventhough I told him he aught to find one more spefic to cancer because it a different kindof of thing then someone just deing suddenly. Last night we had a chance to share what had happened with hospice, and everyone was shocked at how poorly they treated our family. It felt good to finally be able to get it off our chest. They gave us a lot of time to share and speak about what was happening which I think really help us.
They had asked if we have seeked out one on one grief counseling, we haven’t because we are thinking a support group sistuation would be better. It was more of a cancer surviver group but they had compassion and understanding for what we where going through and we felt comfortable there. One of the lady had told us that we should be tested for a gene which causes cancer. My dad died from lung cancer, and I mentioned it, along with my husband mom passing. They told him he should be tested to eventhough he was adopted. Everyone in the meeting was a lot older then I or my husband. It’s been a long time since I or my husband been called kids other then by his parents.
It was a Christian based group which was nice, because the focus was more on G-d and they prayed some, there where several people fighting and in remission of Cancer. I am praying they all make it through it. There was a little devotional which was nice, personally I think it be good if someone wrote a devotional for people fighting with serious illiness. One thing I have noticed with just about all people I know who have fought cancer they show a lot more forgiveness and sometimes they show how their faith truely is.
I don’t think there are many set prayers that really work well, I am not one who follows set prayers, and to be honest I find them kind of on the annoying side. I have always felt if I need to talk to G-d why do I need other peoples words, and they don’t always tell HIM how I am feeling. Sometimes I have been in a place which well I don’t exactly know where to start and what to tell him. Sometimes grief can be over powering and well something has to get me back on track.
One prayer over the years I have came to appreciate is the Kaddish. It brings the focus back to G-d, it helps brings thing back to G-d. The kaddish is:
Leaders and mourners:
Magnified and Sanctified be His great Name in the world which He created according to His Will. May he establish His kingdom during your days, and during the life of the whole house of Isreal, even swiftly and soon; say, Amen.
Congregation:
Let His Name be blessed forever and to all eternity.
Leader and Mourners:
Blessed, praised and glorified exalted, extolled and honored, magnified and lauded be the Name of the Holy One, blessed is he, though He be high above all blessing and songs, praises, and consolations which are uttered in the world; and say Amen.
Congregation:
May there be abundant peace from Heaven, and life for us and for all Isreal; and say, Amen.
leaders and mourners:
May He Who makes peace in the high places make peace for us and upon all Isreal; and say Amen.

This has been one of the prayers my husand and I have focused on. We know where mom is so this prayer is easy to focus on, she had strong faith. It hard to be with out her, but we know some day we will be back together.
My mom has been a help to, and sent both of us a little money toward grocery and I was able to talk to mom about some of the things. She asked about my sister in law, and I have to say I don’t think my mom knew what to make of it. Her husband, could tell my sister in law was a sore subject. I just don’t get how she can be so cruel to dad, and it seems like she trying to cause dad a heart attack. It’s time for some serious tough love with maybe some Anoretix. When mom told him what had happened he got the picture. What has annoyed my husband and I is that since we found out about mom cancer and even before that, we have made more visit and we live at least 2 hours away from them. Before her cancer diagnoise we visited at least twice a month, after we where down every weekend but for the weekend my ankle was broken and I was having trouble. Then the week my husband and I thought the car was going to be fixed. His sister since the cancer diagnoise only been there like 2 times. We have felt a lot of responsiblity and expectations of being strong have been placed on us.

making time

admin — Fri, 22 Aug 2008 15:49:01 +0000

Sometimes making time to spend in prayer is hard. We are told that it’s important to spend time with the Father. Yeshua has given us a outline of how to pray. I am not saying I haven’t been praying, because I have been. I was thinking a little bit ago that I haven’t really been praying about other things, like what should I do about Children worship. It’s important when leading worship even if it for children to ask the L-rd what to do, and ask for guidance.
We as believer need to both spend time in studying his word, and spending time in our prayer closet. It’s important to pray for our loved ones or even people we don’t really know. In the bible from Genesis to Revelation it talks about prayer and how important it is, it shows the power of prayer. In Genesis prayed to G-d for his barren wife. We know being barren wasn’t a good thing in their mind because G-d had told us to fill the earth, he wanted us to have children. Sometimes I wonder if he did this to show us what it’s like. Don’t get me wrong kids are great but they are challenging.
Moshe went to G-d on behalf of Israel several times, and this includes during times of war. When Moshe had his hands lifted up to G-d they were winning their battle when his arms fall they started losing.
In the Book of Luke, shortly before Yeshua was walking among us, Zechariah was praying for a child. An Angel of the L-rd appeared to him. He was told he would have a son.
Yeshua in the garden prayed for us and encouraged his disciples to pray with him, and for him, but we all know they fall a sleep. Yeshua was teaching us a lesson her, have we learned it, to a point I believe we have.
All of the examples I see in the bible of Prayer, show how G-d can work with us when we just ask. We are told we have not because we ask not. It’s like when my shower doesn’t want to give me hot water through the shower faucets. If I do not let my apartment manager now that my water is going from hot to cold and back to hot, burning hot in both my husband and my shower, how can they fix it. I am not saying G-d is like this because he knows when things are broken, but I think he wants us to ask Him. It is a part of a relationship, we have to ask our parents for things we want growing up. I know my mom knew a lot about what I wanted like if I needed shoes she knew about it, but I still had to ask sometimes.

Standing strong

admin — Sun, 13 Jul 2008 03:27:41 +0000

Recently our Rabbi started a new series about the full armor of G-d. That’s not what he called it, but that pretty much what it is. We as believers need to release there are two different things, the spirit world and then the physical world. Sometimes when things happen it’s not because of us as people but because spirits our leading us to be that way or influencing us. This is why it is important to put on the full Armor of G-d. Ephesians 6: 10Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes.
The thing is when people sin and do evil things many times they think they are doing it for the betterment of other people, even though the behavior can cause a lot of pain in the people involved and maybe cause a ripple effect of people being wounded.
12For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. 13Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. 14Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, 15and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. 16In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. 17Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. 18And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the saints.
We are encourage to put on the full armor of G-d but many people do not know what that is. Shoot I never really understood it until a few years ago. We need to be in prayer and we should be studying the Word of G-d. We also need to be aware of when things are not going well, that sometimes it not the person the problem is with but because something is causing some static.
Lately my husband and I have been experiencing a fair amount of static in communication. This is a easy place for him in writing and I am verbal in communicating. We both have different styles but sometimes when things are hard and we haven’t been sleeping well or what ever we are more apt to fall for the schemes. Lately we have been stressed and one of us is a bottler and the other one is the just get it out… Well when that don’t happen a lot then we both become bottlers and theres the easy opening for the enemy to walk right through. Yes I see it and understand it but it takes two to solve it.
It has been hard on both of us dealing with his mother illness. Last night someone commented at church that they where impressed with how I think and treat my husband parents. Today I was talking to someone because seriously, I was at a point where I needed to get some stuff off my chest and talking to my husband wasn’t going to be good. Not that he not supportive but he just has enough to deal with. Last night I found out a friend of mine has cancer, another older lady. So I started to feel like cancer all around, when or where will it end. Yes I know selfish of me to feel this way. I shouldn’t feel angry but I do. I know this is okay, because it is apart of the process I must go through, but I also know when I am angry and sad, I know I tend to take it out on the closes person to me. I try not to but I must be the biggest failure there is at this because I am doing horrible at communicating to anyone. Writing letters don’t work because I doubt I say things right. I could write songs but I don’t want everything to sound sad, and unhappy. I know I have written happy things, and worship songs but it seems I have a over abundance of sad ones.
Our brain is like memory cards, when something similar happens it like you start recalling things from another experience. Sometimes this is good and sometimes it is painful. It’s during these times my husband and I both need to make sure we are putting on the full Armor of G-d and that we are praying for each other.

Struggling this week

admin — Fri, 27 Jun 2008 01:53:32 +0000

This week seems to be getting harder and harder. I have posted some of my struggles. The beginning of this week I fall at work. Praise G-d nothing was broken, just badly bruised. I did find out that my blood pressure return to a healthy level. Which is good but I found out I gained 3 pounds, time to get serious about losing my weight, maybe diet pills, eating right and exercise will work better then what I been doing. We won’t get into how I have tired to lose weight but it clear my body decided to store up my fat because I am going about it all wrong.

Today we got a call from mom, we found out what her spots were. I already knew what the diagnosis was before anyone told us. I told my husband what it was but he wanted to hold on to hope and not jump to conclusion, sometimes I hate my giftings. My husband Mom has a roaming cancer which may be a recurrence of her breast cancer from over 20 years ago. You would think this would be easier for me to handle, that I wouldn’t feel how I do, I feel maybe a little shocked not sure why. I think if I admit it I am a little annoyed with G-d. But I know I can go to HIM and be canned with Him and he won’t be shocked, or angry. Might give me a similar speech to Job but honestly doubt that one.

My husband mom really needs prayer, and I hope people who read this will be willing to pray for someone they do not know.
My husband needs prayer this is his mom, and he is close to her. This hasn’t hit him yet, even though I told him, right away when I knew it was bad. I was honest with him, but it’s different hearing it from a doctor or your parents.
I need prayer so I can be a better wife for my husband, and that I can handle this and be strong for him. Right now I need to be strong for him, and I can’t be weak, I can’t fall apart.

To be honest I never really dealt with my dad’s death from cancer, and this is bring up a lot of those feelings.
Even with everything I know G-d is still G-d, He won’t leave me. I know he is still in control. I don’t know why he allows things like this, but I am guessing it’s because of our Enemy. G-d allowed Job to be attacked horribly by the Enemy and I guess he can let us be too, maybe to prove or faith to HIM or to grow our Faith in HIM.

Give thanks even in rough times

admin — Fri, 20 Jun 2008 04:20:06 +0000

I started out having a good day today, but ended up having a rough night for the most. G-d has really blessed me. Sometimes it seems his hand of protection is on me. Even when things are rough I know I just need to through up a prayer and even though I have to face the trail, I can be strong with Him.
I had a interview today after work. Before I had my interview I ran to the bank. I got blessed with a bounce check from work and that allowed me to put money in my saving account for emergency funds. Praise the L-rd, I already needed it tonight. I went to my interview and that went fairly well I have to take a bunch of testing but that okay. I got a call from my temp agency for a job that was offered to me earlier this week, I was tempted to tell them no but no harm in seeing if this company may like me.
While talking to my temp company, my tire decided it had to pop on me. Ever notice when things happen they never happen at a convenient time, it happens when it time for everyone to close up for the night or when you just don’t want to spend the money on it. I told my temp staffing person, I gotta go and call someone to help me. I know how to change a tire but I was in dress clothes which isn’t wise to change a tire in, plus I am a woman and wearing a skirt. Not a comfortable feeling. I pretty much hung up on her with out a bye, maybe I won’t get the job. I called Discount tires and they where welling to stay open until I got there and take care of me. Praise G-d what a blessing because I really need the van to get to work. The tire was really bad it is a blessing I was on a side street and not the highway because that could have been very dangerous.
My husband came out there just incase I needed him which I didn’t. We came back home and that went smoothly. I just figured the popped tire was it for the day until my husband and I got into his car.
I have talked in the past about my father dieing from mesothelioma, I have shared some of how it affected me. My husband mom went in for a CT today, and we didn’t get very good news. The spots have grown form the last scan. We are worried it may be cancer but hoping that it is just a nothing important. His parents are older. I have grown very attached to them, so I am struggling with this, there’s a part of me that feeling like oh no not again.
I am someone who does a lot of praying and I have been praying. Maybe not the right kind of prayer because I honestly feel I am being selfish with my prayer that it be nothing so that my husband doesn’t have to experience the pain I did, when I lost my dad to his struggle with cancer. I don’t want to have to go through it again, I love his mom and feel she also my mom. She loved and accepted me into her family with open arms from day one.
His mom has already survived breast cancer when he was in college, so if this is a repeat I know it will be bad.

First question

admin — Mon, 16 Jun 2008 01:31:16 +0000

This weekend, my husband and I had a conversation with someone. I can’t remember who, but we where talking about some of the first questions that people ask. The typical first question are ” is this your first time here, or where do you come from” But there’s another question that comes up right away too. What do you do for a living.
I am not sure if that the same for everyone else, but I even noticed this one the bus. I don’t know why but it seems like I get people who want to talk with me on the bus, even when I have my head phone on. I must look friendly or people just can tell I am a listening ear. Funny because I seem to be doing a bunch of talking on here. Since I have been with out good work lately, I sometimes feel a little insecure in sharing what I do. Shoot if I am not between jobs or looking for a new one with being not needed at my stuffing envelops, I don’t feel embarrassed I just know sometimes people judge.
The question of what do you do for a living can be frustrating, but sometimes it fun hearing about what other people are doing. Today I was talking to my Uncle, he is in realestates and things haven’t been easy for him. He asked what my husband and I where doing and if I had yet to get a stable job. I told him about some jobs I had found but the driving as far as gas would kill me. While talking I told him that he and my grandma were part of what help me become the person I am now. Had it not been for the family I would be lost and not where I am at today, Not like I have any real idea of what I am doing right now. He laughed and encouraged me that I was doing fine.
There no where in the bible that says we shouldn’t ask people what they do for a living but there are plenty of places that tell us how we are to act toward our neighbors.
When the disciples and other believers got together they stayed and some sold there stuff so that other could stay. They worked together to stay together, sometimes I think believers need to find their way back to the simple faith of helping their neighbors and not lauding over what they have over those who don’t have the same. I am not saying this has happened at my church because it never has.
My church is one of the few places I have been to that have shown this to me, and taught me this lesson. When I have been in need or my husband someone has sometimes help us out. A while ago my husband was with out a car, and we needed a second car. Someone in the church felt lead to bless someone with the car they had. We where contacted, we took the offer. It was such a blessing, I think G-d saw what was about to happen to us.
My husband got the call about the car but had to wait a couple of days for our Rabbi and them to make sure the car was in good working order. Our Rabbi will not have junk donated to his congregates. A couple days later, my phone rang after my husband had drop me off at work. It was my husband sister calling about their mom. Mom just had a stroke and they where not sure if mom was going to make it. I called my husband immediately and told him he needed to turn back around and come and get me. I had explained to him about mom and he came and got me. I went up to my department at work and explain to my coworker what was happening. I was crying, and very upset when I got upstairs.
Let me explain my reaction. My husband mom loved me like her own, she has always treated me like her own. She calls me her daughter to other people and I am so honored to be apart of their family. I had grown very close to my husband parents. They where like second parents, that actually wanted me. I was loveable to them and I never really felt this way by a parent figure. So hearing we might loss my husband Parents it hurt me.
My coworker was sweet and told me go and it would be okay. I was gone for 2 weeks almost. I didn’t lose the job. My department supported me, while waiting for my husband. My coworker told me you most be very close to them, you speak of them as your own parents. We never know whose parent your talking about, I will give them that.
My husband arrived by the time I got downstairs, I had started praying. When I got into the car to drive, I saw it was almost overheated close to the red. I told my husband I need to get to the gas station and get more coolant in. We put more in. Then came home and packed got ready to go and waited for about a hour and half. During this time I tried renting a car, but neither one of us has a credit card. So we took my car, I thought it would be okay to get down there then we would have a mechanic look at it because I simply wouldn’t have the time to figure out what was wrong with the car and lets face it, I was to concerned for his parent then about my car. So I was making unwise decisions.
The next day we found out that the car had died, but mom was recovering. Maybe my car was a trade, my husband called the family who was donating the car let them know what was happening. I tried finding a ride back to the City which wouldn’t use dad. Dad got very adamant he wanted to come with us to the city. He didn’t want to leave us kids, and he didn’t want to stay at the hospital plus he wanted food.
We ended up taking dads van, I was the one who drove everywhere for dad but I love driving and it helps relieve my stress. I am not sure how dad heard me singing in the van because I was pretty much singing under my breath.. Shoot half the time we have to yell at him to be heard but he heard me clearly maybe because I was worshiping the L-rd.
We went and got the car, it was great clean and was the best thing we have had in a long time. What a blessing! We came home in the cities and dad took a nap and I worked on making some dinner for us. Dad liked the cooking so that makes me feel good, and he seemed less stress he wasn’t sleeping at home so coming up here help him.
Had we not had the car provided to us, we probably wouldn’t have gotten up here, my cat may have went hungry. Now had I not found a ride home I would have called my apartment manager and asked for the caretaker number and call her see if she could help me out.
This isn’t the first time a car has been donated to me in a time of need. G-d has always answered our prayers and provided by laying it on people hearts to help. I believe I have had more blessing given to me then having to pay a new car.
G-d is like HDMI cables he connects us to all the right little ports as long as we allow him to move us and change us.