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Lets go look at the mountain

admin — Sun, 13 May 2012 04:34:19 +0000

After service today we decided to drive up a little so dad could see Mount Hood. We have been getting a nice amount of good weather I won’t need spray tanning because I can sit outside. Dad really likes the mountains around here. I am hoping sometime this summer we can make a trip to the ocean with him. We have a dad sitter coming over Monday so we will have our date night them. I can’t wait a night of no stress and worry.

Good gravey

admin — Sun, 13 May 2012 04:25:42 +0000

Sometimes I find I really have to bit my tongue before I speak. I have gotten a lot better at it, it used to be when I serious disagreed with someone I would tell them straight out. Today I found I had to bite my tongue with someone. They got some pretty key things wrong in my opinion, but you have to let people grow and learn at their own pace. Guess it similar to dancing some people grasp it quick other like me take a little longer to learn. I am glad we found a congregation my family fits into. I have started doing dance and I am really enjoying learning. Sometimes I have to ask how to go two directions when i have someone pulling me one way and another pulling me the other way.. and visually i think i might be going the right direction. I am so glad our dance teacher sees dance as worship.

think before you speak

admin — Wed, 09 May 2012 05:15:05 +0000

Lately we’ve been dealing with dad saying many hurtful things to me. Well frankly i am sick of it. Just because he in a bad mood doesn’t mean he gets to cuss me out or make me feel bad. So I tell him I don’t care. What he doesn’t realize is he can’t take back those words once he said them the damage is done. The thing he doesn’t understand he can say sorry all he wants but it means nothing. He embarrasses me in public he doesn’t take away the damage done or the steers people send my way. At least he not a kid and goes to a commercial playground, because he got a potty mouth. He will often tell people that we don’t take care of him when we do. He likes people to think he not being properly cared for because he thinks people will like him more, What he doesn’t realize this actually hurts me and my husband.

I have never been one to take sorry for a fixing of doing things wrong actions to me speak louder then idle words which they just break anyways.

I’ll do homework outside

admin — Wed, 09 May 2012 05:10:28 +0000

Today was such a lovely day, I decided to do what I could outside. I did all my reading for dsm outside except for a few pages, when I decided to come back inside. I have been working so hard on school work, I think that all I do. Even this page has lacked any value of spiritual stuff. Which is probably fine for now, because when things slow down i be able to add more things.

Dealing with family

admin — Sun, 29 Apr 2012 05:27:12 +0000

Dad hasn’t been feeling well a lot lately. He been dizzy a lot and this has lift my husband and I on edge much of the time. I haven’t been sleeping well when dad is up and down. We are planning on getting a bbq for our balcony, but in the back of my mind I wonder if I have to worry about dad trying to use it when my husband and I are not around. I might need to look at a small folding picnic tables for the grill. We are planning on getting it in a couple weeks, and hopefully dad won’t decide to try to help us with it. Dad doesnt have good judgement so it probably be like dealing with a child to keep him safe like I already do. When I am cooking no one allowed in the kitchen. I make it a family rule just to keep dad out of my way, and safe. I dont want him to be hurt.

Need a bar of soap

admin — Sun, 29 Apr 2012 05:08:48 +0000

Dad has lately been testing our limits and well somewhat embarrassing us at church. Felt like telling him that i would gonna have him eat soap because his language was not acceptable. At least people have been functioning with grace with him so it helps us as a family. We try to watch dad closely and make sure he doesn’t say to much that can cause problems. Dad does seem to enjoy everybody in the congregation so far and goes up and talks to a couple of people he recognizes which is good. Now there are some people especially women that dad need to be watched more carefully with or with children.. He doesn’t do nothing to bad other then have a potty mouth sometimes or make comments to well developed females and don;t really want that with a teenager.

Need to plant

admin — Sun, 29 Apr 2012 04:56:42 +0000

Planting I enjoy it the same as learning new things. I believe sometimes we have things planted within us that need to grow and then be pruned. I love growing garden plants in pots, the only way I can grow them. right now I am working on a mini rose bush and strawberries I am having a hard time getting them to get a good start. I am not sure why, sometimes they grow good sometimes they do not grow to good. I will probably get a few planters this springs for the balcony but i will need to make sure they are safe enough for the stray animals around here.

Sounds painful

admin — Sun, 29 Apr 2012 04:46:39 +0000

Sometimes the pictures in the mind eye the Torah gives is painful especially once you realize what it actually talking about. Talking about picking someone up by a lock of hear in the front of the head to me just does not sound pleasant I have had my hair pulled enough time to know not fun. Although sometimes the pictures in the Torah of the Messiah if you read it and understand the fore shadowiing is near.

Protective

admin — Mon, 23 Apr 2012 00:39:04 +0000

I am very protective of dads health. I don’t mind getting after him. Everyone knows its because I am concerned for him. Yesterday we’d ask him if he felt fine, and he said yes. He wasn’t acting like he felt fine. Well another from our congregation asked him and he said he could be better, and when asked what was wrong he said if I knew i’d make him go home. Well, not always but if he sick or dizzy my husband and I need to know. He can tell someone else that he not feeling good and they can’t do much to help him. However me he can tell he dizzy and I might have some dizzy pills, it also allows me to journal it in his monitor book. To help them look for something not right. My husband and I are always frustrated because he will tell other people something wrong but lie to us.

We would never let him take something like apidextra but if we have it in the house we’d have to hide it in case he decides to try to take something for pain because he doesn’t want to say he is in pain.

Adding more studying

admin — Mon, 23 Apr 2012 00:30:42 +0000

I have to say I appreciate our Rabbi here, even though I can’t always read his studies ahead of time. I simply do so much studying during the week that I don’t want to spend time reading or studying what he’s sent out for the week to prepare for service. So I will play the friendly village idiot until I have time to be able to actually study. I appreciate that he actually sends out his notes and wants us to have a discussion and not just what ever comes out of his mouth is what we must believe. I think this is in a way good but sometimes it can be problem some.