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Still happy with my TV

admin — Fri, 27 Aug 2010 15:50:15 +0000

There is one thing I will say sometimes we watch our sermons on tv, and it doesn’t seem to come through as nicely, my husband and I before getting our tv, we visited a lot of
tv reviews and spoke to many people about what is the best tv. I thinking the problem might be on the end of the provider who giving us the services, or maybe it’s the video camera. I wish my husband and I would have done more research on the
UMD cables for the HDTV had we done that we would have saved a little more money. We have enough spaces to hook up our PS3, Xbox360, DVD player and Satellite, which is nice and we still have a little space lift over.
We will have our flat screen TV for a long time, because my husband and I wanted to be careful we also got a
Power Surge Protector which was recommended by just about every place we visited.

Glad it not me

admin — Thu, 26 Aug 2010 18:08:25 +0000

I am glad i didn’t have to help dad get his benefits from Social security, I know how hard it can be. There are companies who help with gaining social security disability and it is important to make sure they are free services to people who need help getting these benefits. I have a couple of friends who have had to go through this process and I wish I would have known back then some of the services I have found by accident, or because I been asked for my opinion about it. I could have lead them to easier things, but sometimes life just isn’t going to be to easy.
All I know if you need something, you have to be persistent to get what you need.

Still trying to figure it out

admin — Wed, 18 Aug 2010 02:31:01 +0000

It is hard to determine what I need to do about schooling, I do not look forward to taking any more testing to prove I can do it. I know there are great please for
lsat prep courses maybe I ought to look to see if there any programs to help me study for my graduate level testing. I am not sure I have ran into this website often, and it seems like a good resources because it requires no books because everything is completed on line. I like online courses because they are easier to complete, but at the same time they do pose a challenge when the material is not fully understood. I know professors or instructors are there to answer question, and if it ran like my last university students can also help each other with challenges.

Already 4 years

admin — Sun, 08 Aug 2010 03:05:49 +0000

On Friday it will be four years that I been married to my hubby. I am surprised he stuck with me this long, because I can be difficult to deal with but so can he. G-d has blessed us through our marriage. My hubby and I have not had a peaceful marriage, we have had many challenges that most young couples do not experiences. It seems my husband and I since before our wedding been challenged and experience hard things. These times have grown us closer together. We do not fight as much as we used to, we do have animated discussions which sometimes sound like fighting.
I think when we hit 5 years mark we will have to have a party, we won’t hand out cigars not even for when we finally have children, but we will have a great time. I am not sure what we will do this year.

No more bible college for me

admin — Sun, 08 Aug 2010 02:39:29 +0000

Today I was sharing with some people and someone bless their heart had suggested I go to a Christian college for my master in counseling. Everytime someone suggests I go to a Christian college I just want to crawl out of my skin. It took me a long time to even go back to college and with much encouragement from my husband. I still feel at times I am not good enough or smart enough, because of the words spoken to me by those in spiritual leadership. I wasn’t just told G-d could never use me, that no producer would be interested in my talent , ect. Someone in the psychology department told me I was too stupid to be in college. After so many negative words being spoken to me there I started believing this, and I still struggle with not believing those words, even though I graduated with a solid GPA high enough to get into almost any Master program I want to get it. I do not want to go to any Christian college because I have found secular colleges don’t care if you are “stupid”. The UOP never told me, I was stupid when I struggled to grasp concepts or ideas, they spoke with me never once making me feel inadequate to do the task at hand.
It amazes people when I tell them what I went through in Bible college, because this wasn’t Christ like behavior, and it caused me damage. I have gained a lot of confidence but I am terrified to leave UOP and go to another school because I am scared I will hear those ugly words. Of your not smart enough. Well maybe my intelligence shouldn’t have been question but the inability of the professor to explain things in a way I understood them. The your not talented or what have you.
Something I remembered today which I had forgotten for a long time. Was I was helping with worship at a church where they were close to some in the music department and I was told, “you’re not one of the top 2 best singers so you can’t sing anymore.” I think we as believers need to be careful of the words we speak. The words we speak can damage someone.
Yes I know I should not look for man approval, and I get after my husband for it. I have hide a lot of myself from people at church to try to protect myself, because I do not want to be hurt again. I have recently started allowing people to know me.
One of my friends at church pretty much told me today he was going to encourage me through my Master Program, which is nice. I know I can do it. The question is will I live in fear which eventually could give me serious problems. I can always just go for it, apply at other colleges for my master in Counseling or Social work, and pray they will have the same values but sadly, I do not think I will get it from my Brother and Sister in the L-rd and this saddens me.
I am honest about, I know I wasn’t the best student the first time I went to college. I didn’t know my learning style was and how to use it. I also went to a school that thought Dyslexia meant I was less of a person. I am not saying they should have kept me in the music department but then again they should have never accepted me into the music department if I wasn’t talented enough to begin with its not like I am something who doesn’t have feelings. I might not look as good as Hon office furniture, but I have my own quality. I wish I would have known it back then so I could have avoided the pain of the experiences.
Have I forgiven those people who have spoke cruelly to me yes, has it helped me yes in some ways but I think confidence will be something I struggle with until I am where I want to be.
To encourage those people who know what I am talking about and feel you can’t do it or not good enough, don’t listen to that, do not let the enemy rob you like he done me. To my friends who read this your encouragement has been valuable to me and has helped me not give up. Another thing Bible college can be great for some.

Bunch of leg injuries

admin — Sun, 08 Aug 2010 02:10:16 +0000

I have noticed at church that there are a bunch of leg injuries, almost like we are trying to have a costumesparties of who can have the most injuries. Sometimes I wonder when a few people have injuries that are the legs if maybe G-d is trying to tell us to slow down and take time out. I know my work accident wasn’t because I was going to fast somewhere and probably none of my friends injuries are faults of their own. Tomorrow is the picnic for our baptism stuff and I don’t really want to go because I just don’t think its going to be very fun if I have to be in a leg brace and can’t walk like I like to do.
I am hopeing that the specialist tells me it a bad bruise with a sprain of the knee. Not sure why I need to see a specialist.

This week Commentary

admin — Sun, 08 Aug 2010 01:57:03 +0000

Considering I can’t remember what the reading was but I do know my hubby taught mostly out of chapter 12 of Deuteronomy. It when G-d is instructing his people what to do, when they take possession of the Land of Isreal. My husband brought up something about Ba’al worship I never knew, I knew some stuff not very much. I understand why G-d would want us to take down all of their idols and not be worshipped in the same way as the people of where ever they where worship their gods. Something I always wondered was why would G-d instruct his people to kill the inhabitance of the land they took. While my hubby was talking today it became clear. Israel would have had a very difficult time getting those people to turn form their gods and their worship. It would be hard for Israel not to worship G-d in the same manner as the people they took over.
My husband compared Ba’al to being in a adult bookstore, which probably would have been like that. I wonder what the people thought. It would have been a challenge to clean it up and to take things out that G-d did not want. I mean it not like they had
promo keychains services to clean up what the other people had in their lives that would have been unclean.
My husband said something to us today about maybe not trying to figure out why G-d said to do something and just to do it.

Update on Dad

admin — Fri, 06 Aug 2010 20:00:14 +0000

It has been a long time since dad moved in with us. Things haven’t always been easy but it seems like there are being to be more bad days or hard days so doctor put dad on a med to help with that. Since putting dad on that med he is a little easier to deal with him. He is calmer which is good and less likely to have a lot of aggression with me. There is coming a time when my hubby and I will need to get some help in for him. I am considering when that time comes having a
nanny camera to make sure nothing happens to him. I worry about letting people come in because I haven’t been the best house keeper. I have always had struggles with keeping my house up. It doesn’t help when mostly I am cleaning the house. Dad hasn’t been throwing things on the floor for a while which is good makes my life a little easier.
He been in a pretty good mood the last couple of days and seems more happy. He enjoys coloring, which is great because it gives him something to do that he can accomplish.

I don’t know

admin — Sun, 11 Jul 2010 05:49:34 +0000

Today my husband taught on Repentance, it seems to be a theme this week. I won’t get in that here because I am going to be held accountable. I just know I got a lot of praying to do, for someone. Well I was in the nursery today during service, and hubby hadn’t let me read his sermon like he sometimes does, so when I was asked a question I didn’t know how to respond. It is hard to know how to respond to question when you have missed the sermon, would be like trying to answer question on
prenatal vitamins and knowing nothing about them and deciding not to read anything on the label. Well the question I was asked is when G-d is describing His self to Moshe, and talks about judging those who hate him until the third and fourth generation. She had a question about this and I couldn’t give her a answer. Part of the reason why I didn’t know where my hubby was talking from, I know in the liturgy we say this to but it also talks about the blessing or loving of those who love him. G-d is slow to angry he is compassionate which is what he describes Himself as, he is loving and will wait for us, but then there comes a time when we have simply strayed too far. A question I often hear is G-d going to hold the third and fourth generation for the sins of the parents, or grandparents. I think No because of other passages in the Torah and new covenant scripture where G-d shows healing for those who have been harmed by sins of their for father. I believe when we make a choice to follow G-d and allow him in that he will forgive us. However I do believe sometimes we need to ask him to remove generational things. Some sins are ingrained in us from a early age, and we need to decide not to do them. So what did my hubby say during the sermon I have no clue, but I know it was a good message all of his messages have been good.

A Long day

admin — Sun, 11 Jul 2010 05:29:40 +0000

I got up early today, and didn’t really want to get up. I was tired, I know when I start my Sabbath tired I ended it exhausted. Today I worked with the infants and I noticed I deal with those kids the same way I deal with the kids I work with except I do not count to five to change activities. Children are strange, one minute they was hitting me or being unfriendly next minute they was hugging me and running to me. I love toddler and infant age babies. Now I wouldn’t want to do it every week, I have no problem helping sometimes.
I don’t know why people got to bug me about having babies, I am getting tired of telling people. I am not ready for children. It like they are trying to sell merchant account for children.
I know G-d gives us talents and one of my talents is to work with children I seem to know how to relate to them. I also have music talents and am being used there too. Sometimes allowing G-d to use me is a little scary and sometimes it frustrating because people just don’t seem to understand we are not ready yet for children. In his time we will have them .